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For The Fuckups With Soft Hearts


For The Fuckups With Soft Hearts

For The Fuckups With Soft Hearts
— Read on thoughtcatalog.com/holly-riordan/2020/01/for-the-screwups-with-soft-hearts/

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I guess it’s a start???


I took my son to an appointment and decided while he was in to take the dog for a walk. My ears are frozen but I am sweating. I walked 30 min! 3,000 steps. Now considering I am supposed to be pacing myself, I think it is a good start. I bring him once a week but it won’t be 28 degrees and no wind on every Tuesday especially since this is the middle of winter in Maine! But , I still feel pretty good about it!!

Just need to try to stretch next time!!!

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Meaningful vs Happy


Do you have a meaningful life or a happy life?

Is there a difference, some say yes and others no.

I know I have a happy life. I have an amazing husband, great kids, house full of animals who keep me laughing and always make me feel loved when I am alone. I am hands on building the house of my dreams, as close as possible at least, and don’t have to worry about food or rent as I have in the past.

Can you have both? I struggle constantly trying to make myself better, mentally and physically. If I could have someone to tell me, how to make a small business out of my , creations, how to feel better about myself, how to be healthier and more comfortable in my own body.

Step by step, you need to do this , this and this today. Everyday. But also help me stay motivated and focused while also, building a house, being a wife, mother with responsibilities ( laundry, dishes, etc, etc,) and friend.

Do they make an app for that??

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I just can’t loose weight


I was a size 6-8 my whole life until about 15 years ago. I was diagnosed with Addison’s disease when I was 22, this was 8 years later. I am ashamed to say I weigh 202. Pounds and I feel disgusting. I have physical limitations that I do not fully understand the reason for, I have fibromyalgia, ok, I have arthritis, ok, but I have a swelling in my hip and “tire” area no doctor has been able to explain! That was when I started limiting my activity and started to gain weight. I just figured out I can not have dairy and thought that would be it, but, nope. It is not my bones, we know that for sure. I think it has something to do with air, I can get a lot of gas sometimes after the swelling comes but it is so severe I look crooked! It is visible to anyone that one side is bigger, it has always been the left side. If I am physically active when it is already swollen, it gets worse and can hurt all the way down my leg. Everyone just says,” there is nothing there”? Yup, just my hip. But it swells. My dr said to “get regular ” but I have never been!!

So, I need to loose weight. I hate the way I look. But I just can’t fig out how with limited mobility. My dr has suggested water physical therapy. I just feel like it is hopeless. Of course my husband loves me and always gets upset when I say I am fat or something, says he still sees the 15 year old girl he met but, he will see it someday.

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Learning to pace myself


Oh boy!! So I have days or weeks that I feel like I have no energy at all and then I have days where I can get tons of things done, after a long talk with one of my docs, she explained how, “I am not thinking about the whole picture.” Mental, Emotional and Physical things effect me soo much more with my Addisons Disease. I was stressed and worried for weeks, if not months, about going to court with my husband against his ex wife, we won, in case you didn’t read it, but the effects of all that still had to go through me. I was emotionally exhausted. It took me almost two weeks of down time to recover and when I did, I go, go, go and don’t pace it out. I exhausted myself physically in two days and then could not figure out why I was down again.

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What!!

That makes soooooooo much sense!!!!!

So now, I have to learn how to pace myself everyday and maybe I will have less down days and more up days.

This is so hard!!! If I sit down to rest, then I get tired, in the time it has taken me to write this, my eyes are now getting heavy. (Sleep disorder)

So sit and rest long enough for it to count but not long enough to make me tired and suck my energy out anyway!!! Uugggghhhhhhhh.

This Sucks!

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