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Salina


On Clear out the shelter days here in Maine hubby decided I needed a new kitten. I got a dog, Atlas, he turned into a daddy’s boy, it’s been a year since I lost my beautiful Myah so he said it’s time. After a couple places we were about to leave when he started to play with this little girl. Now you need a kitty young before age of 1 to ensure the dog and cat can become friends, I insist on a female, and I wanted a white and or grey one. The shelter brought her out, 4 years old and black. I pointed out the age and the worker and my husband had a quick talk about her being fine with dogs and next thing I know we are adopting her!! Ummmmm, now wait a minute! I thought I was getting a new friend, not my husband!! I have adapted and she is friendly and crazy funny. She does ok with the dog, sometimes rubbing against him and freaking him out, other times she swats at him and hisses. Woman. Lol I guess she can stay.

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Since they were babies


I have written this poem in different ways since my boys were born to include the times and situations. I sent this with my son to have in his apt , he knows it’s just a , makes mom feel better thing! Lol I can’t believe how fast time has gone, my youngest is 16 and 6 feet tall and my first born is getting ready to go to Med school!

I feel old!!!

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It’s a big mess


I haven’t been on in a bit but I find the need to vent or ramble, whichever you prefer. I have talked a lot about my husbands ex wife, closet drunk, extreme parental alienation, and of course a narcissist. For 12 years he tried to get her family to do something about her drinking but they didn’t want to deal with it, now she has lost all liver functions. She has been in the hospital for over a week, they are being extremely quiet and secretive about the whole thing and the only reason we even know for sure it’s her liver is from her calling to talk to the son who will come here, and his comments on her eyes and skin being yellow.

Her mother told my husband, this was immediate family only matter. Ummm, let’s see now?, married 12 years • father of her only two kids • I think he is immediate family!!!!

They have told the kids to prepare, but then have been saying stay positive and not telling them that YES she is going to die. I feel they need to be able to say goodbye. I can’t imagine the mental pain they will always feel if they can’t say goodbye.

I really am so angry they are not letting us know if we should be preparing! If we have to take in his kids full time then we need to make a lot of changes!

His older son hates us both because of his mother, they just going to throw him at us knowing it’s the last thing he would want?

Her mothering skills are totally opposite of mine and having to adjust to kids who have not been taught respect, empathy, to pick up after themselves, to do anything for themselves at all is really hard for me. Both are ADHD but I think the older is actually autistic but she refuses to see it or have them re-evaluated although it has been since they first started school since it’s been done. Now they are 8th grade and high school.

So this is one of the many what I am doing , rants to come.

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I live my life


My days all start with the same old game, open your eyes jump and up quick or feel like your dragging yourself all day,

Getting out of bed and moving around , is like telling the future of what my day will behold,

Someday I wobble and don’t feel secure not really sure if I will land on the floor

I take my pills, a handful to start, try to be a mother, try to be a wife

Half an hour at a time, I live my life

Not sitting too long or reading at all, it knocks me out and I hit a wall.

The day will end , no matter what time, if I drive or ride, read or write , mostly if I use my computer at all,

30 min later the alarm will ring, half an hour at a time, what a life

Falling asleep driving limits this for me , the thought of hurting anyone I can’t go far from home

What work could I do, physically week and plenty of pain for me

Can’t sit at a desk or stand for long , can’t drive , can’t type, can’t even write this blog, my eyes are falling

This day is over, the monotony of my life

Living 30 min at a time ,

my prison inside my own home

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Macy’s Removes Plates From Stores After Complaints They ‘Promote Eating Disorders’


Macy’s Removes Plates From Stores After Complaints They ‘Promote Eating Disorders’

https://science-news.pw/macys-removes-plates-from-stores-after-complaints-they-promote-eating-disorders/
— Read on science-news.pw/macys-removes-plates-from-stores-after-complaints-they-promote-eating-disorders/

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Everything’s a Quote!


I just want to express my frustration, seems everything I do is a quote .

I use my app and it is outdated, deleted and reinstalled, nope still the same. If I go to the site on a browser then I have my updated categories and things , I have continued to battle this but I realize at the moment the site looks horrible so,

I’m sorry!!!!

Please bare with me.

🙏

Thank you.

Tracey

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This Gruesome, Disturbing Story Will Convince You To Stop Accepting Airdropped Photos


This Gruesome, Disturbing Story Will Convince You To Stop Accepting Airdropped Photos

This Gruesome, Disturbing Story Will Convince You To Stop Accepting Airdropped Photos
— Read on thoughtcatalog.com/holly-riordan/2019/06/this-gruesome-disturbing-story-will-convince-you-to-stop-accepting-airdropped-photos/

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The therapist


My husband and his older son have been going to see a therapist, at different times because he “hates” him. His ex refuses to let him go in a lone , she even after being asked and told multiple times to stop, talks about him right in front of the boy. She has made up lots of whopper stories about both of us. She has more than just a negative attitude but is the biggest narcissist I have ever met.

After months of this weekly it has come to the point that the therapist is writing to the court to make her recommendations. She thinks Garrett has autism, ex freaked out, she thinks he should be re-evaluated, ex said no, so she said point blank, You are nothing but negative, you have put many things in to this child’s head, you are the poster example of parental alienation and you also need individual therapy! We have her printing it all up and on our next check in phone call going to throw it all out. All that we have on her, all she has done and we will see what happens. She has made claims and accusations but has no proof of anything. We do.

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Addison’s and Addiction


My suboxen weening process has been going great still. I need to get to another endocrinologist since my other one closed the office last minute, like literally. They called Monday to remind me of my appointment on Thursday, then called Wednesday to say the office closed for good??? Ok. Soooo, my primary is not sure how to deal with anything other than the normal monitoring of my levels.

I am still only taking 1 mg a day and still terrified to go down any more.