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Mental Health Commandments Part 1


Let’s get straight to it…This post does not need a preamble Prioritise growth, learn, ask questions, go to museums, visit libraries, watch old films,…

Mental Health Commandments Part 1
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Death-COVID strikes again


On Christmas Eve my step father died from respiratory infection due to COVID.

Rick was stubborn but healthy, very healthy. He was married to my mom for about 25 years before he passed and I can’t remember him ever being sick. That scared me. I have not gotten any vaccine shots for Covid but had been thinking it’s about time to.

I have Addison’s disease. Covid attacks the adrenal glands. I have talked to quite a few others with Addison’s who have had the shots and have lived. The common thing was they all got sick for a couple days. It ranged from mild to hospitalization but they got sick. I need my husband to be able to be home for a few days so I have someone with me who knows what’s going on and can drive me to the hospital if needed.

My doctors told me to do it right from day 1 but the lasting effects of medication, even if you stop taking it, scares me. You don’t know. When Prozac first came out I was 18 and put on it. After 20 something years on it I changed meds. Then they started saying you should only take it for a few years. Great!! Now when I am at the best place in my life, no reason what so ever to be depressed, I still have to take meds. I tried cutting back then totally getting off them and I went psycho. My mood and emotions were everywhere!! It was horrible. I think that is because I was on it so long that it messed up my brain.

Point is I’m scared, I’m worried and I’m mourning.

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Meet My Pet


•Hi! My name is: Atlas
•My nickname is: Pup-pup,
•My breed: Bassador ( half bassist hound and half black lab) my head and most of my body is lab but I have teeny tiny little legs!
•My age is: 4 years old
•My favorite humans are: daddy, momma, the neighbors, any kid, my brothers,
•My biggest fear: not getting any attention
•My favorite thing to do: dig! Sleep in strange ways, run run run, play with my friends Blu and Fin, talk ,watch my neighbors, stand on my head and talk like Chewbacca
•What I hate the most: when no one wants to play
•Where do I sleep? In my chair or on the couch or in my bed or anywhere that keeps me next to mommy and daddy
•Do I love car rides? Ride! Ride! Ride!
•Do I snore? No I just like to sleep in lots of positions!

I was supposed to be full grown when I came here, surprise!

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Father


My dads birthday came and went a couple days ago and it hit me pretty hard. This is the first one since he died.

5 of these pictures I never even saw till he died, my mother would not talk about my dad, I think she resented that I was Daddy little girl.

We had an unscheduled family gathering when I was really sick and before I was diagnosed, I am sure you can see how pasty and white I am in one of the photos. I barely remember any of it.

My sons got to meet my dad at least before he died. I miss him. I know this is scattered and not much of a post, my mind is everywhere right now.

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How to Let Go and Move On | Leave Your Past in The Past


To Balance or Not To BalanceAfter a wonderful weekend with Networking Women in deepest rural Hereford with some like minded women, a facilitated …

How to Let Go and Move On | Leave Your Past in The Past
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Emotional baggage


I was estranged from my family for years, like 10 or so. A few years ago I was able to push it all aside and reach out and I have continued to reach out a lot. Probably could be more, yes, but still.

I have lost my grandparents, my father and my mother lost a breast to cancer, ( which runs in the family, every female for 5 generations! Thank you mom!) so that has helped , reasons to get together.

They apparently believe it is all due to my husband , ??? 🤔 Yes he may say call your mom, but it was me that was able to push past old wounds. He’s lucky I love him! Anyway, I have learned things as a mother, as a woman and as a psychology major.

My mother didn’t know how to handle an emotional teenager, or an emotional anything really. She still doesn’t, it was easier for her to just say it was all me than to think something was wrong and I needed her. She will call and tell me point blank that she forgot to call and tell me…. Like when my grandmother died.

I say the phone works both ways, I like and comment on all the posts my siblings put on Facebook. I try to connect, and I know it has been a long time. I even told her I was sorry for being mad at her all these years for not being the mother I wanted. Something like that, she just looked at me and said “Yup.” I grew up alone, I went through years alone trying to raise my boys and deal with my health issues. When I realized my boys would need me to be better mentally and emotionally, I started therapy, I did what I needed to do to be the mother they needed.

The point of all this? I feel like I have not had a mother since I was younger than a teenager, I can’t say anything to her because she lives in her own world at this point and she wouldn’t even get it. She just looks at you with a blank stare when you say something she doesn’t want to hear or like. All the therapy and learning, I still can’t get past it.

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Can you see this?


I have stopped getting notifications of likes, comments or anything all of a sudden.

I realize I may not have any comments but, nobody has even looked at my blog in over a month? So just in case, can you let me know?

I can check on a couple things at once! Please and thank you!

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Small visitor


Few days I ago I saw the flash of bright red and fluff from the corner of my eye. I caught a glimpse of a huge fat fox as he ran across the small clearing into the woods on the neighbors property. We knew they were around , along with a dozen or so wild turkeys, couple raccoons and the usual chipmunks, deer and squirrels.

My concern was it was the middle of the day and they usually are out at night. My neighbor has seen him a few times and once had a couple pups playing around the yard as he, or she, rested in the shade. Is that right, pups?? Babies, I guess I could have looked that up first! 🙄

Then yesterday I heard her calling my name, she was quietly yelling to me from the yard. I heard get your camera and got all gitty!! This little guy or girl was cautiously coming towards us from the field out back. He stopped and looked when the kids yelled from behind us or any other loud noise drew his attention. He looked us over a couple times and then kept on his business. As we got closer to him I noticed no fear. Curiosity and caution but no fear.

The closer he got the more I thought he looked rough, beaten, he had hair loss and was tiny, very tiny.

I didn’t realize in the heat of the moment my camera focused on the tree instead of the animal!!! 😳🙄

He was eating some of the apples from the tree and just checking things out.

The kids yelled and started running toward us as we tried to quietly tell them NO!!!!!!

Too late. Then, he stopped, turned toward us and just sat down.

He had come as close as he dared, as he stood , giving us one more long look and turned to go, I again noticed he looked like he had seen better times and I felt for him.

He disappeared into the brush and I could not help but wonder why was he alone? He was so little, he could not survive long out here on his own, the hawks and Eagle would grab him if given the chance, then when the cold comes , his half bald body would be frozen in no time. My neighbor and I talked about putting food out for him but we didn’t want him to get to trust us. Humans can be cruel creatures.

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