For The Fuckups With Soft Hearts
I have been so sad since I found out I was intolerant to dairy! I love dairy!! I like almond milk, chocolate is good, but, almond milk yogurt!!!! Yuck!!!!
I don’t like coconut, but, coconut milk yogurt, oh ya!!!
Hmmm, o k . Whatever, I’m just glad to have my yogurt back. Think dairy free will help me loose weight?
I took my son to an appointment and decided while he was in to take the dog for a walk. My ears are frozen but I am sweating. I walked 30 min! 3,000 steps. Now considering I am supposed to be pacing myself, I think it is a good start. I bring him once a week but it won’t be 28 degrees and no wind on every Tuesday especially since this is the middle of winter in Maine! But , I still feel pretty good about it!!
Just need to try to stretch next time!!!
Do you have a meaningful life or a happy life?
Is there a difference, some say yes and others no.
I know I have a happy life. I have an amazing husband, great kids, house full of animals who keep me laughing and always make me feel loved when I am alone. I am hands on building the house of my dreams, as close as possible at least, and don’t have to worry about food or rent as I have in the past.
Can you have both? I struggle constantly trying to make myself better, mentally and physically. If I could have someone to tell me, how to make a small business out of my , creations, how to feel better about myself, how to be healthier and more comfortable in my own body.
Step by step, you need to do this , this and this today. Everyday. But also help me stay motivated and focused while also, building a house, being a wife, mother with responsibilities ( laundry, dishes, etc, etc,) and friend.
Do they make an app for that??
I was a size 6-8 my whole life until about 15 years ago. I was diagnosed with Addison’s disease when I was 22, this was 8 years later. I am ashamed to say I weigh 202. Pounds and I feel disgusting. I have physical limitations that I do not fully understand the reason for, I have fibromyalgia, ok, I have arthritis, ok, but I have a swelling in my hip and “tire” area no doctor has been able to explain! That was when I started limiting my activity and started to gain weight. I just figured out I can not have dairy and thought that would be it, but, nope. It is not my bones, we know that for sure. I think it has something to do with air, I can get a lot of gas sometimes after the swelling comes but it is so severe I look crooked! It is visible to anyone that one side is bigger, it has always been the left side. If I am physically active when it is already swollen, it gets worse and can hurt all the way down my leg. Everyone just says,” there is nothing there”? Yup, just my hip. But it swells. My dr said to “get regular ” but I have never been!!
So, I need to loose weight. I hate the way I look. But I just can’t fig out how with limited mobility. My dr has suggested water physical therapy. I just feel like it is hopeless. Of course my husband loves me and always gets upset when I say I am fat or something, says he still sees the 15 year old girl he met but, he will see it someday.
Oh boy!! So I have days or weeks that I feel like I have no energy at all and then I have days where I can get tons of things done, after a long talk with one of my docs, she explained how, “I am not thinking about the whole picture.” Mental, Emotional and Physical things effect me soo much more with my Addisons Disease. I was stressed and worried for weeks, if not months, about going to court with my husband against his ex wife, we won, in case you didn’t read it, but the effects of all that still had to go through me. I was emotionally exhausted. It took me almost two weeks of down time to recover and when I did, I go, go, go and don’t pace it out. I exhausted myself physically in two days and then could not figure out why I was down again.
That makes soooooooo much sense!!!!!
So now, I have to learn how to pace myself everyday and maybe I will have less down days and more up days.
This is so hard!!! If I sit down to rest, then I get tired, in the time it has taken me to write this, my eyes are now getting heavy. (Sleep disorder)
So sit and rest long enough for it to count but not long enough to make me tired and suck my energy out anyway!!! Uugggghhhhhhhh.
I have had 3 orders (get lost) so far in the last couple weeks, each was to be shipped from China, each provide a tracking number and each tracking number says, shipment prepared by seller then out to a facility. Then that is it! One item has been supposedly sitting in that place for 13 days, another for 18 days???? Different facility, different town name , that’s it??? I have never had this happen to me before! Maybe one or two in the shopping season but not like this, not at all like this.
My son woke me up in the middle of the night said he had a BAT in his room!!! Wait,! What!!!! We put a towel under the door since my husband is not home and my son was on the couch.
This morning I walk into the other room and my cats are playing with a bat on the stairs!!
I don’t know if it’s the same bat or not but it is winter time here in Maine!! They should be hibernating!
Do I have a colony in my house???
I’m freaking out here friends!
I have talked about my husband, his kids and ex wife before. Horrible human being, major parental alienation, narcissistic alcoholic, daddy money spoiled like crazy, that about sums that up, now that you are caught up,
I started helping my husband stand up to her when we met, when we went to court to ask for more time with them it was decided he should do therapy with them to see about fixing his relationship with them. His younger son actually is great, no fixing needed but his older boy hates him cause of mom. She refused to allow him in with the therapist alone, he is 15. Every one step forward and mom brought him two steps back.
With child support changes they were in and out of court and finally my husband put his foot down and said I have asked for two years and I want it done. We had to go to trial because she refused everything. He told the judge, we have shared custody but she makes all the rules, I see my son 54 out of 365 days a year!
We got everything we asked for!! We won! We had to wait a week for it to come by mail but we WON!! She had a lawyer even , we did not. We didn’t get to use all the parental alienation proof we had but we still won.
Christmas came early!!!
Bless all the children