On Christmas Eve my step father died from respiratory infection due to COVID.

Rick was stubborn but healthy, very healthy. He was married to my mom for about 25 years before he passed and I can’t remember him ever being sick. That scared me. I have not gotten any vaccine shots for Covid but had been thinking it’s about time to.

I have Addison’s disease. Covid attacks the adrenal glands. I have talked to quite a few others with Addison’s who have had the shots and have lived. The common thing was they all got sick for a couple days. It ranged from mild to hospitalization but they got sick. I need my husband to be able to be home for a few days so I have someone with me who knows what’s going on and can drive me to the hospital if needed.

My doctors told me to do it right from day 1 but the lasting effects of medication, even if you stop taking it, scares me. You don’t know. When Prozac first came out I was 18 and put on it. After 20 something years on it I changed meds. Then they started saying you should only take it for a few years. Great!! Now when I am at the best place in my life, no reason what so ever to be depressed, I still have to take meds. I tried cutting back then totally getting off them and I went psycho. My mood and emotions were everywhere!! It was horrible. I think that is because I was on it so long that it messed up my brain.

Point is I’m scared, I’m worried and I’m mourning.