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Angelique tulips!!


I have not had much experience with gardening till I bought this land and started giving it a try. Things I have learned,

Don’t take clumps of flowers from anyone unless they are good with weeding. My mother in law has given me lots of plants and while I appreciate it I also have learned with flowers come weeds!! I have two different kinds that came from her garden that have totally taken over!!!

Don’t make multiple gardens unless you are prepared to take care of them all!!!

Use lots of mulch!

Starting from seeds is hard, bulbs on the other hand are pretty simple

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You are not alone


My grandson has been having so many seizures that people are starting to notice. He is still relevantly knew to his illness and knows of know others with autism.

We his family are asking if you know someone with epilepsy or even have epilepsy we want him to know he is not alone. A note, a card, anything to let him know he is not alone!

This is his mother and the address.

He is only 9 years old and has had to stop playing all the sports he loves because of it, he is depressed and could use some support other than just us. Please and thank you so much

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What’s going on???


I am a procrastinator or am I just lazy? I never leave my house, maybe once or twice a month. I am chaos. I am the opposite of who I used to be. They say you can never go back, is it true here as well? I am unorganized and I don’t finish things.

I have multiple projects started but hardly finish any? Maybe I am not a maker but a collector? I clean the same, start one thing, notice something else and by the end of the day, nothing looks done or finished. I have a plan, a schedule for cleaning and organizing but don’t feel I can use it until my house is finished. I still have boxes packet and my bed is still on the floor. The plan is to tear off the second floor and rebuild it. My living room and dining room will be the same but will get very dirty. This plan has been a plan for 3 years but with COVID and the price of wood, it’s still a plan.

I think the problem is I can’t hold myself accountable for not completing the days list.

Why don’t I leave my house, I am not scared or have anxiety, it’s far from a dangerous area, once I’m out I am perfectly fine? My husband goes to the store or it is Amazon and scheduled pick ups for me.

I don’t like my weight but don’t really try hard to fix it. I look nothing like I used to, besides age.

But I have an amazing life! My husband is the best ever, I don’t worry about money like I used to. Technically I don’t have to do anything but could do anything. Kids have grown to taking care of them selves and I feel my life wasting away. I have had this all for 4 years and have done nothing.

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Death-COVID strikes again


On Christmas Eve my step father died from respiratory infection due to COVID.

Rick was stubborn but healthy, very healthy. He was married to my mom for about 25 years before he passed and I can’t remember him ever being sick. That scared me. I have not gotten any vaccine shots for Covid but had been thinking it’s about time to.

I have Addison’s disease. Covid attacks the adrenal glands. I have talked to quite a few others with Addison’s who have had the shots and have lived. The common thing was they all got sick for a couple days. It ranged from mild to hospitalization but they got sick. I need my husband to be able to be home for a few days so I have someone with me who knows what’s going on and can drive me to the hospital if needed.

My doctors told me to do it right from day 1 but the lasting effects of medication, even if you stop taking it, scares me. You don’t know. When Prozac first came out I was 18 and put on it. After 20 something years on it I changed meds. Then they started saying you should only take it for a few years. Great!! Now when I am at the best place in my life, no reason what so ever to be depressed, I still have to take meds. I tried cutting back then totally getting off them and I went psycho. My mood and emotions were everywhere!! It was horrible. I think that is because I was on it so long that it messed up my brain.

Point is I’m scared, I’m worried and I’m mourning.