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Father


My dads birthday came and went a couple days ago and it hit me pretty hard. This is the first one since he died.

5 of these pictures I never even saw till he died, my mother would not talk about my dad, I think she resented that I was Daddy little girl.

We had an unscheduled family gathering when I was really sick and before I was diagnosed, I am sure you can see how pasty and white I am in one of the photos. I barely remember any of it.

My sons got to meet my dad at least before he died. I miss him. I know this is scattered and not much of a post, my mind is everywhere right now.

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Jeep Diaper Cake With Trailer


I had a blast making this for my niece! It must have looked pretty good since my nephews son went over and tried to play with it! He pulled the two top bars over so I had to hold them up with some extra cardboard till the end of the party.

I had to get creative for the grill since I went large in Jeep size! Use what you got!

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Emotional baggage


I was estranged from my family for years, like 10 or so. A few years ago I was able to push it all aside and reach out and I have continued to reach out a lot. Probably could be more, yes, but still.

I have lost my grandparents, my father and my mother lost a breast to cancer, ( which runs in the family, every female for 5 generations! Thank you mom!) so that has helped , reasons to get together.

They apparently believe it is all due to my husband , ??? 🤔 Yes he may say call your mom, but it was me that was able to push past old wounds. He’s lucky I love him! Anyway, I have learned things as a mother, as a woman and as a psychology major.

My mother didn’t know how to handle an emotional teenager, or an emotional anything really. She still doesn’t, it was easier for her to just say it was all me than to think something was wrong and I needed her. She will call and tell me point blank that she forgot to call and tell me…. Like when my grandmother died.

I say the phone works both ways, I like and comment on all the posts my siblings put on Facebook. I try to connect, and I know it has been a long time. I even told her I was sorry for being mad at her all these years for not being the mother I wanted. Something like that, she just looked at me and said “Yup.” I grew up alone, I went through years alone trying to raise my boys and deal with my health issues. When I realized my boys would need me to be better mentally and emotionally, I started therapy, I did what I needed to do to be the mother they needed.

The point of all this? I feel like I have not had a mother since I was younger than a teenager, I can’t say anything to her because she lives in her own world at this point and she wouldn’t even get it. She just looks at you with a blank stare when you say something she doesn’t want to hear or like. All the therapy and learning, I still can’t get past it.

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Corn Maze!


Pumpkin picking and a corn maze. Maine traditions, although this was my first time ever going in a corn maze.

My husband was fun and popped his head in the pumpkins! The kid didn’t want to do it and I said do it anyway, his picture shows him crying. I guess my definition of goofy fun is not everyone’s. Jacob and Branden used to do those kind of things with me , and we had fun doing it. David’s son, AKA, kid, is just so different than my boys where.

Got some gourds to try and dry out and preserve, again, never worked before but hey why not try it again!

The picture of the house was a glint of light reflecting enough to catch my eye, I zoomed in and was surprised to see it was this beautiful house! It was so far away, I love zoom!!!

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Value those who value you and don’t overvalue those who devalue you


We are social creatures. Whenever we do anything, we watch how people react to our actions. Accordingly, we moderate and modify our actions. Such …

Value those who value you and don’t overvalue those who devalue you
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How To Stand Up For Yourself And Not Be Taken Advantage Of


It’s found one of the key characteristics when it comes to bullying, is it’s those individuals who constantly attempts to please others to a fault, …

How To Stand Up For Yourself And Not Be Taken Advantage Of
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Where Do You Fit In The 5 Levels Of Soul Life Evolution


There is an universal law on how old we truly are. This has nothing to do with our chronological age, or the day we were born. It’s not about where …

Where Do You Fit In The 5 Levels Of Soul Life Evolution
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