Tag: life
William James said “Things are not as they are, but as we are.” We really do see differently from anyone else. Every moment is seen from our perspective and that’s a great thing. From our perspective, we are the center of our world and from that center, we have the power to choose how we see anything. The gift of freedom to perceive is priceless! It’s the key to being happy
Thought….
New light
In the past eight months exactly sept 1, there have been so many drastic changes in my life. All for the better in one way or another.
I met my soul mate, again.
We bought a house
We moved in together which means a new town and new school, all new streets and neighbors.
I was diagnosed with cervical cancer to add to my list of health issues.
They removed all the cervical cancer!
Learning to DIY everything from windows to floors to lights and faucets!
I have never had my own yard nevermind an acre! !
Getting married in one month and 14 days, doing almost all of it ourselves.
My life hasn’t been the worst but I have seen my share of horror and evil in this world and believe everything in my life has been preparing me for this, my happy ending.
I struggled to be a disabled mom and dad to my son’s who I wanted to grow to be healthy and happy young men going out to live full lives as adults and not feeling the need to compensate for what they didn’t have as boys. A father, money, a home and a mother who wasn’t sickly. My focus has been on myself and my family mentally and emotionally for so long that once my older son left home for school, I felt a little lost. My other boy is 14, 6 feet tall and full of confidence as to who he is. That’s when David came into my life after 25 years. I realized he was gods way of saying,” it’s ok to find love and let go, be happy, let all that work pay off,” and that’s exactly what it has been like for 8 months.
Daily Prompts and updates
Every now and then I do a daily prompt, not because I have nothing to write about or because I have run out of great blog posts to share but I think as a challenge to myself. So, today’s is pause.
Pause is my life at this time! I feel as if someone has pushed the pause button on me. We have bought a house and started work but now my man is out of town , well state, for work for 4 days which of course is on the weekend , which is mostly the only time to get any work done. He works ten hour days so after eating and things at night after work he only has a couple hours.
My whole, Back, forward and back again, thing that I was doing of course was hit by a wall when cleaning , organizing and downsizing became packing to move. The idea is still there, the hallway space I used to put things in to get rid of has increased again but I still have gotten rid of, 8 large black garbage bags, 3 or 4 regular size kitchen garbage bags, 5 or so 18 gall totes, and a few boxes worth of stuff. My man brought a box of contractors garbage bags which are, Idk, huge, he started to just fill them up with stuff from the basement that either wasn’t mine or was trash. Had about 6 or 8 of them. So, on that subject I am still a work in progress but the point is that it is still happening. Things that I don’t want to throw away r put into two piles, donation and yard sales. The new house has huge yard sale space and is on a main road so we have decided on that happening and once I have all of the stuff we r taking out I will move all the selling into the living room and open the door for an indoor yard sale!
The end of school is June 16. Now I’m thinking about what to do with that. My son has stayed back once from 7 grade and he’s in danger of it again became doesn’t do his work. Now he’s busting butt to pass the last quarter to not have to stay back. I don’t think it will help any to switch him with only a month or so left (by the time we are ready and moved in) I don’t think he needs to stay back and am going to see what we can do but that may mean waiting until after June 16 to go live in our house.
Then I still have a wedding to plan for October 14, 2017.
I am in pause status on everything and it didn’t help that we both have been sick for the past week.
Aaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And, PAUSE.
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Echo , Daily Post
I feel as if my life is an Echo, I just keep doing the same things over and over. The people in my life, some anyway, are a poison running through my veins sucking the slowly destroying my life , my health, my family.
The true meaning of insane is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results.
I have no choice, some of these people I have to have in my life. It’s not an option.
So as I listen to the words that the actions speak differently, I have to learn to not care….. How do u not care when someone lies to your face, thinks you are stupid enough to believe it, or just doesn’t care if you believe it?
People like this are a toxin in your blood stream. It causes so many problems, mental and physical.
Echo, repetition, echo….my life.
Waiting
Today’s one word prompt from the Daily Post is waiting.
Once again a word I could go on for hours about, but I will not.
We wait forever for our children to leave the nest. Then when it comes we are beside ourselves. I am at this time waiting for the bus to come get my son so he may follow his dreams. As he heads off on the bus to make his mark on the world, I feel like it was yesterday he was born, two weeks overdue and still not budging , I should have known then how stubborn he would be!!!
Pride, fear, sadness, all overwhelming me at once. My other son says he will be back to visit on thanksgiving mom, visit!!??? Thanksgiving, that’s weeks away. Wrong choice of words son.
Even though he was hardly ever home, knowing he isn’t walking in the door anytime soon makes it feel empty.
Now, I am waiting for my baby to come home , to visit.
Daily Prompt: Realize
Oh the ways I could go on, I have realized my life needs change, organization, newer people in my life, to learn how to say no, to be much healthier with out putting myself into a crisis, to get away from all the narcissist people I seem to be magnetically attracted to.
So. I have a lot of times that I realize I need change. I also realize a lot of these things are going to be hard to obtain. I know one day at a time. One thing a day, bla bla bla bla……..
Just saying it doesn’t make it happen and sometimes it seems very much out of reach.
Pretend
Oh the fun I have with pretending to be happy. I pretend to know what I’m doing as I craft, as I function through my life. I think today I will pretend to know what I’m doing as I cut and sew, stencil and sponge. I could go on and on with this word. I pretend to be a photographer and artist……… Ok that’s enough. Lol. Let’s go pretend to have a great day!!
Challenge to Myself
I need some pick me up on becoming…….
I am really trying to find myself but get stumped in depression or it’s to hard, or I try to give up. I am not happy with my life, were I am at 42, what am I doing? Is this it? I should be more than what I am and I want more. So, anyway, I am going to challenge myself to do one post everyday about, something I did to reach my goals that day, something positive I can say everyday. About me.
He’s a very quick summary to help you all to maybe get me better. If that’s possible!! Lol
At 22ish I was diagnosed Addisons Disease, hypothyroidism.
Married an abusive man because I was to scared to say no. We had a son. Left him and the first time I was with another man, boom pregnant. On birth control both times!!! Lol both times I was just getting back on my feet. Started with more health issues, one thing after another. I have heard, arthritis, fibromyalgia, scoliosis, carpel tunnel, mixed connective tissue disease, etc.etc.etc. I have tried to work but something keeps happening were I get sick then get fired. S S says because I can work some I do not qualify but I can not work enough to support my kids by myself??? Have something wrong with just the left side of my body were my hip area swells as in, size 12 when I get up, size 16 if I am active. I have gained more weight but can not excercise without swelling and hurting more. I was abandoned by my family for poor choices in my youth and still receive no support from them. I am lucky to get a card from my mother for Xmas. They all live in the same town. My 18 son did start to go the wrong path but has realized it and has gone back to school for his diploma, has a talent for singing and leaves for job Corp in 2 weeks, so I can’t be that bad of a mother. Never had money from his father and he has never been around. My 13 son is sweet and smart and a great kid, his dad is around some and does pay his child support.
So, I am a mental and physical mess and I want to at least make me happy. That was t as quick as I said, sorry.
Tracey in Maine 