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Angry


I’m angry people keep telling me my husband is watching me,

I don’t believe it.

I’m angry because he’s in the box on my stand.

His urn is a box for us both

I’m angry he’s gone

I’m angry he got cancer

A rare kind for 70 year old men but he was 48

I’m angry I have to bring up this boy alone.

Im angry at him for leaving us even though I know it was not his choice.

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It’s been a year


It’s been a year and a month since my love passed and I finally gave in and asked for help last week. I miss my husband like I would miss an arm or leg .

I got custody of the kid and his mother drank herself to death, making sure to tell him it was his fault, now’s he is legally mine not just a sep son. My boys treated him like it was a party. lol

I didn’t know how to pay any of the bills, I didn’t have any idea what we had for bills or what we had for investments.

I have been on the couch for a year and realized it was time to get up. I have an appointment with a grief therapist and got a new pill to take, (another is not a problem any more! )

I am starting to wake up.