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Lost loves


Wanted Too Call You Today To Say I Love You, But Your Old Number Is No Longer In Serivce. I Tried The Operator She Said Sorry I Have No Number For You. I Tried To Go To Your House, But You Don’t Live There Anymore. The Post Office Has No Forwarding Address. “I Guess Heaven Is Too Far Away. I Love You, I Miss You. You Are In My Heart Always. Loved Ones Gone But Not Forgotten. Merry Christmas Too All Those In Heaven . . Put This As Your Status If There Is Someone You Love Who Is Spending Christmas In Heaven And You Wish They Were Here With You

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I am drug free!!! After 20 years!


I was put on opioids over 20 years ago for pain, I became addicted easily and the trials began. I guess I didn’t realize how addicted I had become, with my Addison’s disease, I’m tired all the time and when I started doing drugs they would give me energy, I could get up and clean the whole house in one afternoon! That was what I became addicted to, functioning.

Jump ahead a few years, now I’m in trouble. I have 2 kids and am terrified the state would take them if they find out so, I was introduced to suboxen. It was easy to buy it off the streets, then I moved and then it started all over again.

It became obvious to me I would need help so I bit the bullet and went to get it. 20 YEARS later, I was still on it. They told me I would never be able to get off it because of my immune disease, my body would not be able to handle it. I started going down by one milligram every like 6 months, give or take. The last part was the hardest, I went down to one milligram a day! Then I new it was in my head, I just stopped. I had to not think about it. Keep my self busy.

Now it’s been long enough that I don’t even think about it and I feel perfectly fine!! Sometimes I feel like I forget to do something, like I missed my meds or something, lmao. I didn’t count the days after a week because I knew I was good. I wish I could scream it to the world but, I had already told tons of people I was off so I didn’t have to worry about being robbed. My best two friends and husband have encouraged me and supported me the whole way. I thank god for them.