I don’t know what to do, I have two weeks before my brothers wedding. I have nothing to wear as I have gained weight. I am so self conscious as it is. My family is not very nice to me, most anyway. I guess I am not what they wanted me to be. I don’t know if I dare to make anything or should I play it safe and just buy something. I wish I could be there without being seen. I love my little brother. I raised him for a good part of his first few years. After I moved out though my mother wouldn’t allow me to take him anywhere or spend time with him with out her. She makes me feel like my life has been all just failures and she makes sure I come across as the failure she claims I am. At her wedding the three of us kids were supposed to stand up and say we do when asked who gave her away, no body told me. She makes it a point to tell me it’s my fault I am who I am and she is very disappointed. I am not a druggie, I had my first child at 24, been married to his father who beat me and cut me. I have chosen abusive men most of my life. Then I got sick k and the only thing good I have now is my boys are wonderful. Which is almost enough for me anyway, but they had no faith in that, they tried to take my son away when he was born. They either didn’t pursue or they were told they had no grounds. I entered everything when my son was born,I was a part of all the programs I could be so I had a lot of backup. They had no reason. Two weeks before his first bday our apt burned, we went to live w my older brother. They tried to change me and control me, picked my clothes, my hairstyle, everything. I moved out and that’s when he and his wife disowned me because they didn’t think I should go yet. My husband was in jail for another 2 years still and that’s when they apparently talked about taking him. That was it, that was the only reason, I didn’t do drugs or drink, I didn’t cheat on my husband even though he was abusive. I did nothing to deserve that treatment and this is all crashing on me as the two weeks go on.
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I am panicking as the days go…
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This is a bracelet I made for someone, they like purple so I had to get purple beads but, I like the 4 strand better than two.
JUMP
So, it was brought to my attention that I was asking questions about pingbacks and the prompts from the daily post , but, I never did write anything on the one word prompt.
It shows an inner look at my thoughts, my brain, the scattered way I do things because this is actually my life. I jump from thing to thing, thought to thought, project to project. Every aspect of my life is this way. I have tried to write things down so I don’t jump around, ya that doesn’t work. I wish I could organize my thoughts, goals, things I need to do, things I need to remember, sometimes it works for a short period of time but not long. I need major organization in my house, that would help alot I’m sure but not so easy , I have tons of stuff I need to get rid of to make room, which, means a yard sale which, I have the place, finally, to do it but now I need to figure out how to display ( display is the key in all sales) things, tables, tarps, place for hanging things, then prices and signed and of course when do I want to do this. My brothers wedding is in two weeks and I’m stressing out over that as it is but I also need to take into consideration we have a cornmaze to go to this year that is a daylong thing, another weekend is a family thing from my bf family, I am going to run out of weekends in October. See what I mean, jump, jump, jump….
Help, advice, please….
I have a younger brother who is getting married on Oct 8. They are both big time gamers and computer know it all. I saw something like this and thought I could make them one for a wedding gift. I am panicking, is it dumb? If I do how should I word it? I was thinking a mixed media thing. I made the paddles from perler beads. I have the font, acylics, an actual controller wire. So, help me please, I need advice. Is is dumb? How should I word it? Should the heart go around everything or under?????
Please anyone I am in real need of advice!!!!
Jump… prompts
I am kinda confused on this whole thing from The Daily Post on the one word prompt pingbacks? I look in the comments and the dots in all the paragraphs are confusing me. Can someone explain how to do the ping backs for me? I have read a few things but I get confused. I’m going to try to find some through the daily post but help is always better.
Today prompt ,Shared from WordPress
Jump – http://wp.me/p23sd-12WW
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50 Thoughts That Can Motivate You to Do Anything (5 min read) – http://wp.me/p7hi1Z-nj
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What’s the Secret to Attracting & Getting More People to Subscribe to Your Blog? (2 min read) – http://wp.me/p7hi1Z-39
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20 WordPress Plugins to Get Your Website Up & Going Faster (4 min read) – http://wp.me/p7hi1Z-6ys
Stairway to ……
love this place. When the water is still like this and the tide is going out, it’s so peaceful and quiet. It is hard to believe it’s across the street and out behind the places. The top of the stairs start from a parking lot behind the rooming house. You find beauty in some unusual places.
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The Ability in dis-A-bility (4 min read) – http://wp.me/p7hi1Z-5QO
When they get quiet
I think, hhhmmmm, she is all quiet, better see what she’s doing. I turn and am looking for her, on the floor , then she giggles and I walk around the couch some more and see her sitting up on the stand. I said,” what are you doing,” she pats the stand like she does when she wants to sit on something and just says” up, up.” I say, “yes I see you are up on grammie stand, does that look like a seat? “She just smiles. That smile, that little girl. I don’t know what I would do without her and her brother. They add choas but it seems to help with my own choas inside…
Free samples
Here’s my free samples I received today, how bout you?
Socialnature.Com sent me the all natural Nature’s Aid skin gel.
Pinch me.Com sent all the rest. This is a great site to get boxes of samples on.
The things people do…
In a matter of ten minutes, yup, ten minutes there was three car accidents on my little street. On one end two vehicles each with two little older ladies in them got into an accident. Air bags deployed and everyone was fine. Not even five minutes and another accident on the other end of the street happened and maybe three minutes later people being noisy ran into the back of a van, so there’s three.I don’t know what caused the first but the second was kids running across the street I was told, although I was thinking more like they were trying to see what was going on sounded more realistic, and the third was curiosity getting the best of people. In the years , 6 or 8 , whatever, never have I seen such a thing. No one was hurt and the police had some action but I wonder how much of it was just because of the things people do.
Tracey in Maine 