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And then he kissed me……

Posted on by queentracey1

I have been through more then I feel I deserve and more than most could handle. I do believe everything happens for a reason but our lives are what we make of them. Some of you have been with me through enough to know what I mean. I am not sure if I have ever really known love, not motherly, not friendly but true knock your socks off love. 

In the beginning… lol. Had to do it… anyway. We all think in the first few months of a new relationship that they could be the one, we are soooo in love. Then for most people reality sets in and u still like what you have or not. 

Maybe it is when u least expect it. Maybe it is when u stop looking. Maybe, who knows. 

I knew him years ago when I dated his cousin. We started messaging back and forth, I wasn’t going to let him in. I was happy having a new friend to talk to. I cleaned out my friends sometime ago. 

I have been going on and on about changing myself for the better in the last what, 6 months or so, we have been Back, Forward and Back Again. I have been not only decluttering in my house but myself as well. I have had setbacks, was robbed, depressed, and then the holidays. 

Out of it I kept thinking, new years will b the start. I will start again on new years. I said, I am taking the jump and changing things. If u stay safe inside and not try anything, well, u don’t know what you could be missing.

I finally decided, it was time to take some chances. 

He said he would pick me up at 5. 

I have to admit I am doing the Googly eyed , swooning over his every word, can he be real, thing. Does he have a playbook on me or something? How does he know the right answers, he brought roses???, (wow). It’s only been 3 days. 3 DAYS!

WHAT HAVE I GOT MYSELF INTO!!! LOLOLOL. 

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Memories

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Memories are what keep lost time and people alive in our minds and hearts. 

Pictures help memories become more real. 

Things and times we have forgotten become real and alive again. 

Sometimes, I don’t want to remember, sometime the pain that comes with the memory I don’t want, but I have to have the pain to have the memory. 

Pain of a dead weight on your chest burning as it becomes heavier and heavier. The memories rush through you like waves in the ocean. 

Was it worth it now that all we have left is the pain,…..

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Rapping Doctor

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https://spinrilla.com/mixtapes/jcub-the-rapper-the-difference

You don’t have to download an app or sign up anywere, just click the link and get his mixed tape. My son will be the rapping dr. He’s in cna courses now but he has high ambition for medical school. I know rap isn’t my thing but I would appreciate you listening just to hear his voice. The more people that listen, even if u delete after it will still help his numbers. Thank you. Give small town kids a chance!!!

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I’m still here

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I have had so many different things some good and some not so good going on and instead of sharing with you all I was keeping it inside. That’s not such a good idea. My update to

Back, Forward and Back Again

I have been able to get rid of probably half the stuff cramped into my hallway. That was the first major area that has to be done so I can use the space to clutter up with other things. Lol. No, my crafting supplies are going there. As most of you know, supplies are always everywere! !! I had wanted it all done before my 18 year old came home for the holidays. Nope. But, it’s progress.

Then of course dealing with xmas and not letting my kids down was a huge stressed to me until they both told me to stop. I am blessed twice with these two boys. At 14 and 18 they get it. They don’t want me robbing Peter to pay Paul . They are such good kids. I sometimes wonder how I got so lucky.