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Collection or clutter? 

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I have lots of, collections…

Baskets, bottles, mickey mouse, little chairs and benches, plants, teapots, little watering cans and little gardening things, books, movies, birdhouses, windchimes, 

That’s just what I can think of from the top ofy head.Now when my house burned in 99 I just started collecting everything! now I’m trying to collect less.My baskets r hung up around my kitchen , the border going around the middle of the room has plants, baskets, watering cans type things in it. I have more to put up on one more wall. Then comes more decisions!!!!

This is my journey back, forward and back again. Kitchen 95%done

Day 4. 

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Transformation! !!!

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The Daily Post is somehow stalking me!!! Every one word prompt lately has been very much connected to me and my life!! Lol

Isn’t it amazing how easy it is to associate things with ourselves?

 I am completely transforming my life and myself at this time in my life. It’s hard to do both at the same time but then again,  I am being able to think and spend time by myself as I gut my house. 

Oh, The Daily Post!!! Lol

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The Daily Post Prompts…..

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Tiny……………….

We are just tiny specks in a much larger dust pile.  Or

I have only a tiny amount of energy or insperation to clean and declutter today. I started in the kitchen, the best room already, now that I am almost done I am procrastinating on the next challenge. 

I try to remember something I read once in a very old medical book about depression, it said being depressed was just being selfish. Ya, old book. It stated sitting around saying poor me is just being selfish so get up and deal with it. Not word for word but you get the point. I am hoping I will find it as I unclutter and then can be more accurate.  So, I will stop rambling and get up.

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Back , forward and back again

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I used to be an extreme Extrovert,  organized and in control. That changed in the last ten years. I was in a very unhappy emotionally and mentally abusive relationship that I just didn’t have the strength to change. I became totally opposite of my former self. In the past 2 years I have started to try to recover. I had decided when it effected my kids in an oblovious way that enough was enough. 

I have gotten better at going out and doing things I need to do on my own again and my kids are doing really good, so now it’s time to start to focus on my house.

These are a couple of shots of the bad spots to give u an idea on how bad it is. I am very ashamed I let it get to this point but now it’s time to get rid of it. First comes overwhemed feeling of drowning. Stress, frustrating feeling of complete how do I do this!!!!

 This is my journey from drowning in clutter and disorganization as an Introvert with times of agoraphobia to being organized,  independent and hopefully able to get back to my love of art and creating things. 

This is Day One.

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Waiting

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Today’s one word prompt from the Daily Post is waiting.

Once again a word I could go on for hours about, but I will not.

We wait forever for our children to leave the nest. Then when it comes we are beside ourselves. I am at this time waiting for the bus to come get my son so he may follow his dreams. As he heads off on the bus to make his mark on the world, I feel like it was yesterday he was born, two weeks overdue and still not budging , I should have known then how stubborn he would be!!!

Pride, fear, sadness, all overwhelming me at once. My other son says he will be back to visit on thanksgiving mom, visit!!??? Thanksgiving, that’s weeks away. Wrong choice of words son.

Even though he was hardly ever home, knowing he isn’t walking in the door anytime soon makes it feel empty.

Now, I am waiting for my baby to come home , to visit.