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Back , forward and back again


I used to be an extreme Extrovert,  organized and in control. That changed in the last ten years. I was in a very unhappy emotionally and mentally abusive relationship that I just didn’t have the strength to change. I became totally opposite of my former self. In the past 2 years I have started to try to recover. I had decided when it effected my kids in an oblovious way that enough was enough. 

I have gotten better at going out and doing things I need to do on my own again and my kids are doing really good, so now it’s time to start to focus on my house.

These are a couple of shots of the bad spots to give u an idea on how bad it is. I am very ashamed I let it get to this point but now it’s time to get rid of it. First comes overwhemed feeling of drowning. Stress, frustrating feeling of complete how do I do this!!!!

 This is my journey from drowning in clutter and disorganization as an Introvert with times of agoraphobia to being organized,  independent and hopefully able to get back to my love of art and creating things. 

This is Day One.

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Waiting


Today’s one word prompt from the Daily Post is waiting.

Once again a word I could go on for hours about, but I will not.

We wait forever for our children to leave the nest. Then when it comes we are beside ourselves. I am at this time waiting for the bus to come get my son so he may follow his dreams. As he heads off on the bus to make his mark on the world, I feel like it was yesterday he was born, two weeks overdue and still not budging , I should have known then how stubborn he would be!!!

Pride, fear, sadness, all overwhelming me at once. My other son says he will be back to visit on thanksgiving mom, visit!!??? Thanksgiving, that’s weeks away. Wrong choice of words son.

Even though he was hardly ever home, knowing he isn’t walking in the door anytime soon makes it feel empty.

Now, I am waiting for my baby to come home , to visit.

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Let me tell you about something you already know. The world ain’t all sunshine and rainbows; it’s a very mean and nasty place. And I don’t care how tough you are; it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it…”