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And then he kissed me……

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I have been through more then I feel I deserve and more than most could handle. I do believe everything happens for a reason but our lives are what we make of them. Some of you have been with me through enough to know what I mean. I am not sure if I have ever really known love, not motherly, not friendly but true knock your socks off love. 

In the beginning… lol. Had to do it… anyway. We all think in the first few months of a new relationship that they could be the one, we are soooo in love. Then for most people reality sets in and u still like what you have or not. 

Maybe it is when u least expect it. Maybe it is when u stop looking. Maybe, who knows. 

I knew him years ago when I dated his cousin. We started messaging back and forth, I wasn’t going to let him in. I was happy having a new friend to talk to. I cleaned out my friends sometime ago. 

I have been going on and on about changing myself for the better in the last what, 6 months or so, we have been Back, Forward and Back Again. I have been not only decluttering in my house but myself as well. I have had setbacks, was robbed, depressed, and then the holidays. 

Out of it I kept thinking, new years will b the start. I will start again on new years. I said, I am taking the jump and changing things. If u stay safe inside and not try anything, well, u don’t know what you could be missing.

I finally decided, it was time to take some chances. 

He said he would pick me up at 5. 

I have to admit I am doing the Googly eyed , swooning over his every word, can he be real, thing. Does he have a playbook on me or something? How does he know the right answers, he brought roses???, (wow). It’s only been 3 days. 3 DAYS!

WHAT HAVE I GOT MYSELF INTO!!! LOLOLOL. 

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Memories

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Memories are what keep lost time and people alive in our minds and hearts. 

Pictures help memories become more real. 

Things and times we have forgotten become real and alive again. 

Sometimes, I don’t want to remember, sometime the pain that comes with the memory I don’t want, but I have to have the pain to have the memory. 

Pain of a dead weight on your chest burning as it becomes heavier and heavier. The memories rush through you like waves in the ocean. 

Was it worth it now that all we have left is the pain,…..

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She stole our xmas

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For 4years I have had this person in my life. I have done everything to accept her for the benefit of my grandchildren. You who have been here before know how much I love my grandchildren, so if I have to tiptoe around her so she doesn’t get mad about something and take them from me then I did. I have let her live here. I have given her money or rides or whatever she needed if I could.

 I got to the point of calling her my daughter. People would get confused because he was my son but she lived with me. I understood how she was brought up and why she did a lot of the things she did. I tried to explain to her why she did what she did. 

I opened my home and my heart to this girl. She would say, you have done more for me in the time I have known u then my real mother has in my whole life. 

Then, she took everything. The kids were here and she brought them. I wasn’t doing well so when she said, they haven’t had anything to eat at 9:30 in the morning , I said feed them. I didn’t have any milk or bread. I let her go to the store to get it. She came back, cooked for the kids and left. She had put my card on the stand. At some point either her or her bfn picked it up. She cleaned me out. That was Dec 20. My kids and I don’t have Xmas. My son’s birthday is Dec 31. We have to wait for a food bank to open after Xmas because we have no food. She new what she was doing. She knows we have no one. She new everything I had was in that account. I now I should have changed the pin once at least in the past 10 years but , I called her daughter.

My heart is broken, I feel betrayed stronger than I ever have before. I feel like she punched me in the gut, stabbed me in the back and stabbed my heart all at once. My boys. I have two boys at home. What did they do to deserve this? 

I just don’t understand how she could do this. 

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Rapping Doctor

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https://spinrilla.com/mixtapes/jcub-the-rapper-the-difference

You don’t have to download an app or sign up anywere, just click the link and get his mixed tape. My son will be the rapping dr. He’s in cna courses now but he has high ambition for medical school. I know rap isn’t my thing but I would appreciate you listening just to hear his voice. The more people that listen, even if u delete after it will still help his numbers. Thank you. Give small town kids a chance!!!

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I’m still here

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I have had so many different things some good and some not so good going on and instead of sharing with you all I was keeping it inside. That’s not such a good idea. My update to

Back, Forward and Back Again

I have been able to get rid of probably half the stuff cramped into my hallway. That was the first major area that has to be done so I can use the space to clutter up with other things. Lol. No, my crafting supplies are going there. As most of you know, supplies are always everywere! !! I had wanted it all done before my 18 year old came home for the holidays. Nope. But, it’s progress.

Then of course dealing with xmas and not letting my kids down was a huge stressed to me until they both told me to stop. I am blessed twice with these two boys. At 14 and 18 they get it. They don’t want me robbing Peter to pay Paul . They are such good kids. I sometimes wonder how I got so lucky.

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Narcolepsy well, kind of…..

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My life consist of having to time everything I do, every minute of every day. 

I do not get what they call REM sleep. This is the deep sleep that your body needs to, repair, dream, sort through mental issues, and most importantly this is the sleep you need to feel like you slept, to feel rested. From the sleep study they found it takes me twice as long to get there and I don’t stay long enough to really accomplish anything. 

So, because of that little issue, I can not

Drive for more than 30min

Read

Work on a computer, for more than 30min

Take a class

Listen to a lecture

Anything that is more mental than physical, for more than 30 min. Once I do that, I start to fall asleep. Once I get tired it is really hard to not feel sluggish for the rest of the day. It severely limits my life and the things I can and can not do. I love to read, now I can only do it before bed and never for very long. I can not go to the movies, if the show does not keep me interested enough, I fall asleep. I can not drive very far or travel. I can not tell you how many times I have gone off the road. 

So, is this narcolepsy? Idk. It is going to make jury duty on Thursday and Friday awful interesting!!!!!