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So tired of this body

Posted on by queentracey1

I am always in pain, I am always having to deal! If I don’t jump out of bed in the morning, I’m screwed. If I sit on the couch to long writing or reading on WordPress, I’m screwed, the whole day will be a struggle and no matter what pills I take or what I try, I can not get back the energy and motivation that I should have had that morning. I need a new body.

I have the best love relationship with my husband, literally a fairytale. I have an awesome house that I am remodeling just the way I want. My boys are doing great. I do not worry about food or rent like I used to. I have a really good life. I want to enjoy it!!

Modern medicine has failed me but what else to do. I think I have realized I meditate with out even realizing I was, as I was reading and learning about it I saw it was something I do all the time, I sit and just focus on clearing my mind, or on nothing. Ok so now what? Being happy is hard!!!

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Living 30 min at a time

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Scheduling my day , trying to decide what needs to be done. For anything involving my computer, like this, for example, reading or even driving, I have to do it 30 min at a time. My life feels like one long to do page, having to stand and move around so I don’t fall asleep. Can’t go anywhere over 30 min away. Can’t read any of the many, many, books I still want to read, unless it’s night and it’s ok to fall asleep.

Once I fall asleep and jolt awake again, I can try and try to get back my energy but it is gone for good for that day.

Is it horrible, yes it is. Is it a severe pain and makes me just want to cry the tears from all the way down in to my toes, yes, yes it does.

Living 30 minutes at a time

Can not sit , and let my mind go

Can not jump in the car and drive anywhere just because

I love to learn and I love to read

I loved when I used to feel more free

Now if I sit to long it sucks away my living

If I am up to long and do to much

I usually will have a price of pain to pay

Which way is up , which way is down

To be living instead of just surviving

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Tornado named Atlas

Posted on by queentracey1

Reading a recent post from someone I admire made me realize I had not posted about my dog since we adopted him. Atlas was a rescue from Florida, very small and long with a head too big for his body when we met him, but he was our kind of crazy, so he became one of us. Bassadors are half Bassett hound and half Labrador, so short legs, long body! Bassett hounds are the most stubborn to train and he is almost two and still chews everything!!!He hates his nails being cut so has ripped one pair of my bed sheets running around going crazy and my hardwood floors have suffered the most!

At the same time with all the stress comes the love and unconditional friendship, he makes me feel safe when my husband is away, he has helped me with getting outside more and being able to leave the house easier on my own. He is ours and we may never be done with his training but he wants to learn and he seems happy.