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My son is becoming a man

Posted on by queentracey1

At 21, he has a vehicle, apartment, and is working at a hospital making 26. an hour as a technician, plus another part time job. He has gone off to college and lived in the dorms but this is actually moving out! Totally different! I cried like a baby! Lol

I made him some, Open When , cards. I printed some envelopes and glued them together and then put my notes inside. I labeled them, Open When~ you finish unpacking, after your first day at work, when you had a hard day, etc, etc.

you are only limited by your imagination and things to say! If you go to Pinterest you can find some printable stuff to help out!

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It’s a big mess

Posted on by queentracey1

I haven’t been on in a bit but I find the need to vent or ramble, whichever you prefer. I have talked a lot about my husbands ex wife, closet drunk, extreme parental alienation, and of course a narcissist. For 12 years he tried to get her family to do something about her drinking but they didn’t want to deal with it, now she has lost all liver functions. She has been in the hospital for over a week, they are being extremely quiet and secretive about the whole thing and the only reason we even know for sure it’s her liver is from her calling to talk to the son who will come here, and his comments on her eyes and skin being yellow.

Her mother told my husband, this was immediate family only matter. Ummm, let’s see now?, married 12 years • father of her only two kids • I think he is immediate family!!!!

They have told the kids to prepare, but then have been saying stay positive and not telling them that YES she is going to die. I feel they need to be able to say goodbye. I can’t imagine the mental pain they will always feel if they can’t say goodbye.

I really am so angry they are not letting us know if we should be preparing! If we have to take in his kids full time then we need to make a lot of changes!

His older son hates us both because of his mother, they just going to throw him at us knowing it’s the last thing he would want?

Her mothering skills are totally opposite of mine and having to adjust to kids who have not been taught respect, empathy, to pick up after themselves, to do anything for themselves at all is really hard for me. Both are ADHD but I think the older is actually autistic but she refuses to see it or have them re-evaluated although it has been since they first started school since it’s been done. Now they are 8th grade and high school.

So this is one of the many what I am doing , rants to come.

Posted in my thoughts, Psychology, self-help, tips & tricks, Uncategorized, WOW Stuff

I live my life

Posted on by queentracey1

My days all start with the same old game, open your eyes jump and up quick or feel like your dragging yourself all day,

Getting out of bed and moving around , is like telling the future of what my day will behold,

Someday I wobble and don’t feel secure not really sure if I will land on the floor

I take my pills, a handful to start, try to be a mother, try to be a wife

Half an hour at a time, I live my life

Not sitting too long or reading at all, it knocks me out and I hit a wall.

The day will end , no matter what time, if I drive or ride, read or write , mostly if I use my computer at all,

30 min later the alarm will ring, half an hour at a time, what a life

Falling asleep driving limits this for me , the thought of hurting anyone I can’t go far from home

What work could I do, physically week and plenty of pain for me

Can’t sit at a desk or stand for long , can’t drive , can’t type, can’t even write this blog, my eyes are falling

This day is over, the monotony of my life

Living 30 min at a time ,

my prison inside my own home