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Almond Butter and Raspberry Crumble Bars (Vegan GF)


Originally posted on Nourishing Amy: Simple, wholesome and delicious crumbly and fruity bars with an oaty flapjack base, a layer of almond butter, …

Almond Butter and Raspberry Crumble Bars (Vegan GF)
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Proud momma


When my son first left for school I was lost, some of you helped by explaining your experience and I appreciated that. I wanted to show you my latest photo of my first born, looks so grown up! He is working in cardiology and decided he will stay with that in Med school. His girlfriend is a fashion designing major. I still miss him and cry when he leaves. I guess that will never change!!

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The shadow addicts


I just read an article on addiction that made it obvious to me that the person who wrote it never has been an addict and probably never knew an addict.

There are many levels of addiction as well as many things a person can be addicted to , I have read that man needs to be addicted to something, work, family, or drugs and alcohol, anything can be an addiction. I am going to address the most known forms of addiction, drugs.

You have addicts to, heroine, cocaine, crack, pills, uppers and downers, most pain reliever pills can be addictive. Some people start from dr prescriptions, other get turned on from friends or just being bored. They say most addicts are people trying to forget or trying not to feel, maybe trying to compensate for something in their life, or something not in their lives, either way I think that is more of a mental addiction.

I personally became addicted to pain reliever pills that I was prescribed for years, moving, getting involved into a not so healthy crowd, and having to change dr, I started buying on the street. Once I decided it was enough, I went back to the dr and was put on suboxen, a drug they prescribe to help people get over addiction, like methadone, it has a blocker for opioids in it so if they are taken you can’t get high, ( although I’m sure people tried everything) the most you can do is nod off.

The drugs they made to help people get off street drugs are so much worse, you trade one for another and those make you sicker if you go with out. It is worse, it is so much harder to get off suboxen then any of the actual drugs! From reading and hearing it from people I know, you can get off pills and feel almost normal again in a week or so depending on the person, with suboxen it can be months if not years before you feel normal, again, depending on the person and the amount and length they were on it. Here in Maine you go to a clinic and they don’t wean you off they jack up your doses and don’t push people to get clean, which is what a clinic is supposed to do. That’s a whole different article though!

I am physically addicted, yes there is a difference, I have had a couple doctors tell me my body could not handle detoxing, which I know is true, but that’s cold turkey. If I didn’t get the nurses to get the papers in to the insurance company so they could get them to the pharmacy before the weekend I have had to go without, I ended up in the hospital. That was when I had a dr who only gave me enough for one day after my appointment. The dr I have now believes in me and gives me enough for, just in case. I have been taking suboxen for about ten years give or take. I have tried to wean off but failed multiple times. My endocrinologist just told me I have to do the weaning in more triple times between dose changes, so months not weeks. The last step is the hardest and I have been putting it off. All of my disabilities revolve around pain and fatigue, weaning causes pain and fatigue.

So it is not so black and white as some may think and it is not always junkies trying to get the next fix. I never sold things or robbed anyone, I never did or said anything in front of my kids and they never ever went with out anything. There are people who do and some even loose their kids, but not all. There happens to be quite a few people like me out there, we are just the ones you don’t hear about.

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Absence Epilepsy


My grandson is 8 and I don’t see him much at all, guilty feeling all around, he started having episodes of zoning out and then not remembering when he came back, so after testing, this is the diagnosis. To start on medication he will have to go through two weeks of being very sick. They live about an hour and half away, which to some people is nothing, my husband drives it to and from work most days, but for me it’s hell. I fall asleep so can’t drive it and my husband works some 70 odd hours a week.

We still have to finish the garage, the house is supposed to be done as soon as we can get a crew over here to do the electrical. The whole second floor of the house has to be packed up and a large amount of the first. Im trying to get myself figured out, I’m lost in a wave of what to do, how to do, make, buy, sell, cleaning schedule, etc, etc, etc.

Then my ADHD step son who can’t remember to do anything and needs constant supervision, he’s 13. My other son is trying to get through high school and screwed off the first two years. Both my husband and I have ADD to different extents so really my house is so unorganized it’s not funny. It’s complete chaos, not one room is finished. Not one.

Can anyone say full of anxiety and stressed out? I feel like I’m being pulled a bunch of different directions and I going to tear apart any time!!!

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11 Parents On The Terrifying Incident That Made Them Realize Their Kid’s Boogeyman Wasn’t ‘Imaginary’


Man in a fishing hat “When I was a kid one night I heard my window across from my bed open. Some guy in a fishing hat stuck his face in through the …

11 Parents On The Terrifying Incident That Made Them Realize Their Kid’s Boogeyman Wasn’t ‘Imaginary’
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Seasonal depression?


It can effect even the happiest of people, like me. I always looked at my depression as selfishness, when I was unhappy. Years of being a single mother, no help at all in any way from dad, financially stressed, fighting constant illness, and trying to do my best for my boys mentally and emotionally to help them become great men.

To be depressed when I have never been so happy has thrown me off. How do you explain something like that to people who have never experienced it?

Thanksgiving my son told me he had to work on Christmas and didn’t think he could come home, I thought I would curl up and ball! I have never had one of my boys on Christmas morning and although I know it is inevitable, I am not ready. He got a later shift then expected so did come home ,till he had to work anyway.

I hope you all have had a Blessed and loving time this holiday season.

Jacob, (my doctor in training), Branden, (turns 18 on the 31), step son Cj, (has made me a grammie )and Ryder, (13 year old just moved in with us from abusive mother, aka, David’s ex wife)

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