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It’s been a year

Posted on by queentracey1

It’s been a year and a month since my love passed and I finally gave in and asked for help last week. I miss my husband like I would miss an arm or leg .

I got custody of the kid and his mother drank herself to death, making sure to tell him it was his fault, now’s he is legally mine not just a sep son. My boys treated him like it was a party. lol

I didn’t know how to pay any of the bills, I didn’t have any idea what we had for bills or what we had for investments.

I have been on the couch for a year and realized it was time to get up. I have an appointment with a grief therapist and got a new pill to take, (another is not a problem any more! )

I am starting to wake up.

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How to live again

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For the past year since my husband died I have gotten out of bed, gone to the couch and back to bed. I have tried to start to heal but every time something throws me back on the couch, COVID, eczema on my hands, something mentally or financially stressing me out. This is by far the hardest thing I have ever done..

My husband was my world, we had an epic loved every one who knew us talked about. We first met at 15, he knew I was the one right then and there but I didn’t. Through out the years we just missed each other many times and then he found me again on a dating app my friends put up. I made him wait a month and half before I finally said yes to going out but we text every day till then so I had gotten to know him well. I think I already had fallen for him but I definitely knew by the end of that night he was the one.

We had 6 years, 3 months and 9 days .

He was diagnosed with a rare form of cancer in January last year, he went in for a major surgery in March and never came home.

He insisted he was going to be ok, he swore God would not take him from everything he had ever wanted just like that.

I went for custody of my step son who already lived here with us because his mother was a drunk and I knew my husband would want me to, she drank herself to death in Nov. I won custody. I have been doing ok with cooking but he’s 17 this year so does a lot of it himself. I order groceries and just pick them up,

His one year anniversary is coming up and I still can’t breathe.

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How to save him

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This is Blu he is, I believe 3,and he is going to be put down on Tuesday.

His human family got him during COVID , he was never socialized or taken anywhere and has become aggressive to anyone who comes to the house that is not there all the time.

He got his name from his beautiful blue eyes, although you can’t see then in the photo. He played with my dog outside for awhile until he was bigger and ended up getting into a fight with my dog. Blu was running up to my husband and my dog stepped in between. Blu has only associated with the dog and cat living in the home and not been leash trained.

I feel for him so much because he is being put down on Tuesday. The family has three kids with lots of friends and family that has to call ahead or wait outside to visit. Blu goes in his crate when he is alone and stays on his short run outside.

I can’t take him due to my dog and I live next door. He needs someone who is skilled to help him become people friendly but he is such a good boy in the house with the family. It’s not fair he has to be put down, he is still young and healthy. It makes me sad being an animal lover.