Happy Valentine’s Day all!!!
Love for yourself or love for another
It’s love we celebrate today
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Don’t just settle
Don’t survive
Demand the best
Be the best
Live life
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Change
If I looked back a few years or more the person you would see would not be me. From physical, mental and emotional abused relationships always with narcissist men , to realizing I needed to change myself for my kids sake and then the journey back to being at peace( mostly) with my self, I have come a long way. I still think of the years I spent hiding inside my safety of home and letting life just slip by. I wasted years and years like that. I still would rather be in my house but I love myself now so it’s different. It’s not easy asking for help, getting into therapy and staying with it but I know with out a doubt it saved me. I still deal with narcissist people, and I try to remember they really are not doing it intentionally, or don’t even realize they are but it is not easy.
Love Dr Perry!!!
By Dr. Perry, PhD “Logic will get you from A to B, imagination will take you everywhere.” ~Albert Einstein In my professional life, I recommend to my patients that they practice a bit of time travel. I ask them to imagine traveling into the future and to make positive visualizations about the time to come. […]
2018
The year 2017 was the best ever for me and I can not even begin to see how I can top it!
I found my soul mate and married him so he couldn’t get away! Lol We bought a house, moved my whole family a half hour away to a different town and into the country.
I was told I had cancer, and I beat it! I have worked on my eating and exercise habits, or trying to be habits and just over all well being, mentally, emotionally and spiritually.
I got to see my brother, sister and father for the first time in 18 years, met my nieces and my brother in law.
I have had emotional flows of happiness so strong it brings me to tears, all I have ever wanted and wished for I found with one man, who I ignored 25 years ago when we first met, but I wasn’t ready to receive his love at that time. We both had to indulge in the cruelty of human nature, sacrifice all that we were and then rebuild better and stronger first because only then, only when you can love yourself , be proud of who you are, are you able to fully accept someone’s gift of unconditional beauty and magical happiness that is true love.
I never thought I would find such a beautiful thing in this world so filled with hate and violence, I always thought my sins as a teenager had deemed me unworthy and went to far at trying to make up for it by letting people take advantage of my help many times till I realized that also was not right. I needed to just be me, deal with the punches as they came and live my life as it was. 42 years for me to be broken completely, stumble blindly for awhile trying to find the right path and start over to form the mother, friend, and woma, and now wife I wanted to be.
To me marriage is sacred and never ending. Divorce is not in my vocabulary with exception of cheating and violence, marriage is something you put 100% of yourself into and then find more. You are no longer one person but an ever evolving unit always in perfect stride with each other.
In writing my vows I somehow got to bible verses and found the story of god making woman. In the version I read it said he made Adam feel the need for a mate first and then he took, not from Adams feet for him to walk on her, not from Adams head for her to rule over him but from his side for him to understand they were equals. This even now I’m crying because it hits home so hard for us, I was always walked on and treated like I was nothing and David’s exwife ruled over him in his prior marriage and was controlling, so as you see, it just had to be.
so now as I say goodbye to 2017 I can not imagine what is in store for me in 2018 but having the love of my life by my side will make it nothing we can’t handle together.
Reunited
my mother split with my father and moved us back to Maine when I was about three. My dad remarried and when I was ten had another daughter. My little sister was my favorite person, I didn’t see her much but it was love at first sight! My step mother was amazing, she would brush my hair and braid it for me, she taught me how to play piano and about so many things in the short time I had with her. I only saw them in the summertime and it was never long enough. I had a baby brother come along and shortly after that my dad and step mom split up. It was the end of my visiting and I lost connection with my siblings. Facebook brought us back together and my amazingly talented MMA fighter brother made it to my wedding. That started it all. I needed to see my sister after that and I new my dad was 80 and not that healthy anymore so this past weekend we had a road trip! It was five hours one way and since my oldest Jacob was home from college for thanksgiving break we got to bring both my boys with us. We left Friday after David got home from work , stayed at the hotel that night and started sat fresh to see my family. I was nervous and excited and scared all at once! I’m the one out of four who is not a major athlete, mma, boxing, running, my three siblings do it all, My sister is my brothers MMA coach! I’m the black sheep, my success is my sons and staying alive. They have tons of accomplishments and still going. Ok, but, I was still family. I got to see them both, meet my brother in law and my two nieces, got to see my dad and see my step mom again with her husband who took great care of them all growing up. It was amazing and comfortable and emotional. After about an hour of being at my sisters, my brother took off with my two sons and my brother in law stole my husband. We belonged. We decided from now on it will be a yearly thing. I will not loose them again. I got to tell my step mom how much she had actually meant to me and the influence she had been to me. That felt amazing. I felt like I had family for the first time in my life. I don’t really fit in with my mother and older brother here in Maine and just never felt like I belonged. Now, I know that I do belong, not just as a mom and wife but as a daughter and sister and aunt! The empty black hole that has been inside me for as long as I can remember has closed up quite a bit and I think it’s only going to get better from here on!
Love
Never felt my place in this world till I met you.
We did it
David and I got married!!!
I am now officially Mrs David Bernier!!!
I am so used to being the photographer everywhere that it is weird for me to not have any photos yet but my son and step dad went crazy with there cameras and I will have some to share.
Have a whole lot of tips and tricks to getting married with it just as you want for 1,000!!
Takes more work on ur end but completely doable!
Going to need another day to recoup then I will be back
The now, Tracey Lee Bernier
Hopeless!!
That’s it I give up. I am going to just come out and confess that I am hopelessly in love with David! This man is like no other! He thinks of me first no matter what. He worries he will disappoint me, he makes something he’s doing harder for him so it’s easier for me. I have never really known anything like this. My life has been filled with men who are in one way or another abusive and to find one who is , whole, it’s amazing!! I find myself being embarrassed by his compliments and I have yet to become used to him opening doors and being so protective of me on the ice and snow. I know I lived a lot of my life sorting out myself by understanding my past but I have decided that I’m tired of looking behind me. I have discovered enough to feel as if I am capable of loving myself and others as I was meant to. I may not have learned it all but I think it’s enough. I don’t want to look behind me anymore. I have decided it’s time to look ahead at my future and how I want it to be. I also have decided that he is the one I want to do it with. The next two months will be packing and moving and unpacking as the process of closing the deal for the house starts and my new life will begin.
Advice??????
Some of you may have followed enough to know my health, my financial issues, my seemingly bad luck! Lol Well u may also have read my recent post about the new man I recently met.
It’s been three weeks since we started dated, 7 weeks since we started talking all together. He has been staying at my place with me most every other night. Once 3 nights in a row.
Since its the beginning of course I’m at that Google-eyed state and think he’s soo perfect. Lol. We do enjoy all the same types of things, have the same sense of humor, and both have been abused by past loved ones.
So, here’s the problem, I have been noticing I’m not able to sleep when he is NOT here. Most of my adult life I couldn’t sleep if someone was there. When the storm came and I new he wouldn’t be able to come , he lives about half hour away, I instantly got a headache. I CRIED after I spent the 3 nights and a whole day and half with him and he had to go back to work. The next couple days he had a meeting and then his kids were coming so I new he wouldn’t be back for three days.
I don’t understand how it is possible I am having physical issues when I can’t see him. That doesn’t seem normal!!!!!!!!! I wasn’t like this w my husband and I thought he was my soul mate. Aaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Help me!!!
Relationships…..
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And then he kissed me……
I have been through more then I feel I deserve and more than most could handle. I do believe everything happens for a reason but our lives are what we make of them. Some of you have been with me through enough to know what I mean. I am not sure if I have ever really known love, not motherly, not friendly but true knock your socks off love.
In the beginning… lol. Had to do it… anyway. We all think in the first few months of a new relationship that they could be the one, we are soooo in love. Then for most people reality sets in and u still like what you have or not.
Maybe it is when u least expect it. Maybe it is when u stop looking. Maybe, who knows.
I knew him years ago when I dated his cousin. We started messaging back and forth, I wasn’t going to let him in. I was happy having a new friend to talk to. I cleaned out my friends sometime ago.
I have been going on and on about changing myself for the better in the last what, 6 months or so, we have been Back, Forward and Back Again. I have been not only decluttering in my house but myself as well. I have had setbacks, was robbed, depressed, and then the holidays.
Out of it I kept thinking, new years will b the start. I will start again on new years. I said, I am taking the jump and changing things. If u stay safe inside and not try anything, well, u don’t know what you could be missing.
I finally decided, it was time to take some chances.
He said he would pick me up at 5.
I have to admit I am doing the Googly eyed , swooning over his every word, can he be real, thing. Does he have a playbook on me or something? How does he know the right answers, he brought roses???, (wow). It’s only been 3 days. 3 DAYS!
WHAT HAVE I GOT MYSELF INTO!!! LOLOLOL.
Tracey in Maine 