That’s it I give up. I am going to just come out and confess that I am hopelessly in love with David! This man is like no other! He thinks of me first no matter what. He worries he will disappoint me, he makes something he’s doing harder for him so it’s easier for me. I have never really known anything like this. My life has been filled with men who are in one way or another abusive and to find one who is , whole, it’s amazing!! I find myself being embarrassed by his compliments and I have yet to become used to him opening doors and being so protective of me on the ice and snow. I know I lived a lot of my life sorting out myself by understanding my past but I have decided that I’m tired of looking behind me. I have discovered enough to feel as if I am capable of loving myself and others as I was meant to. I may not have learned it all but I think it’s enough. I don’t want to look behind me anymore. I have decided it’s time to look ahead at my future and how I want it to be. I also have decided that he is the one I want to do it with. The next two months will be packing and moving and unpacking as the process of closing the deal for the house starts and my new life will begin.