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Rejected!!

Posted on by queentracey1

I saw a post of Facebook about a group of people called Tinkergardeners that do outside classes with kids up to 8 learning through play. I did all the reading and thought it sounded like a great fit for me. I love kids, learning and teaching, I can’t work full time but part time I can do. Classes are an hour long and one a day would be great. Bla, bla, bla. The requirements were good, I did all the first applications and then got to the live one way interview. You have a question, one min to think and then one minute to answer. I thought I did ok. But, I just got an email that while they appreciate my interest, they are unable to complete my application at this time! Hit like a rock! I was not expecting that at all!

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Devastated

Posted on by queentracey1

My heart is on fire with grief, guilt is taking over, my responsibility to my loved ones who counted on me has been betrayed. I opened the door, I let my beautiful girl outside at night and then left her out side when I went to bed. I killed my best friend. My precious girl, she was an angel, she was the most well behaved animal I have even had the pleasure of meeting. She didn’t get up on things or rip things, she never ever not used her litter box. She was very simple and happy. She deserved so much better. She was only 7. I can not forgive God anymore, he has taken so much from me, I don’t need to be stronger! I don’t need to endure anymore great pain! I have had so much pain in my life. I mean, cmon, my Adrenal Glands were so over used by the time I hit my 20 that they quit at 22! Not deformed or any other reason, they were just exhausted! I understand a lot of the things that have happened in my life and I even understand the reason behind them and I did need to learn to be stronger and I was. But I have lived through it, I beat the pain, I saved myself and my kids from all the abuse and I made myself into the person I am now. I beat cancer. I have over come and have my rewards for my troubles. I have the most perfect man for me that could ever be, we have our quirky house, and we have our boys. Yes, his ex is still mentally and emotionally abusing his two and my grandkids are in a horrible situation but we are dealing, Day by day. How could anyone possibly thing I didn’t still need her! How could anyone think I could just get up and move on with out my shadow? She has been next to me every day since she could walk. She was my sunshine, my happiness and my baby.

Myah May Lee August 2011-August 2018

WhaT is all this about August? She was born and then God took my only 2 best friends ever in August?