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6 brutally honest reasons why your intentions don’t matter, but your actions do


6 brutally honest reasons why your intentions don’t matter, but your actions do

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Use arts therapy course for self-healing and become more positive!


Use arts therapy course for self-healing and become more positive!

https://simpliv.wordpress.com/2018/04/23/use-arts-therapy-course-for-self-healing-and-become-more-positive/
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Forget forgetfulness! Train your brain to do wonderful things with its memory power. At just $10!


Forget forgetfulness! Train your brain to do wonderful things with its memory power. At just $10!

https://simpliv.wordpress.com/2018/04/24/forget-forgetfulness-train-your-brain-to-do-wonderful-things-with-its-memory-power-at-just-10/
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My train conductor


I am one proud wife as my husband passed all the testing and goes off to start his training at Pan Am Railways today! His lifelong love of trains and knowledge of them payed off for him and he is now a train conductor!! He is already talking about moving up to engineer and being top of the class made his superiors pushing him to do so. Weeks of him away from home have been rough but seeing how happy he is makes it worth doing over and over. His ex wife had denied him this dream along with other multiple abusive things that killed his confidence and I am proud to have helped him restore all that. I feel like our past of both being abused helps us to appreciate each other more for just being ourselves. It was a long road for us both but well worth it to find this strong and deep of a mental and emotional bond with someone. I am very proud of him !!!!

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Thoughts….everywhere


I look at the other blogs I find and follow and see so much wisdom and beauty in pictures and words and also so much pain. I feel like a sponge always searching for more to absorb in self- health, metal and emotional health and sometimes I have so much to say that I can not say a word.

I have lived through every kind of abuse as I climbed up the ladder to mental health. I have had a “normal” childhood but found myself one screwed up person. I have grandkids who deserve so much better than what they have and live each day knowing to save them I would have to loose them due to my health not being good enough to care for them myself. But, is that just what I tell myself? Is it really me using my health as a crutch? Is my health even as bad as I think it is or have I just convinced myself it is?

I procrastinate like crazy, I would even say I am lazy. At times I do nothing and accomplish nothing in my day. My life changed completely finding my soulmate and he loves me as I am. He works his butt off to give me all he thinks I should have. I have survived but never actually lived. I was a hobbit only leaving my house when I had to, but was it because I was just to lazy to take a shower and care to a point about my appearance? I did this for years, I mean like ten years of wasted life.

I have so much to explore in mental health still. I know we can never stop growing inside and have found I actually enjoy psychology and reading about just how we work as people.

I also have piles of stuff and pages of ideas of things I want to make and create. My house is still not together yet. We are always working on it. At this time I have no kitchen. So much but at the same time nothing.

This is me today.

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Bipolar


If you have followed me for a bit you would here now and again about my best friend who has bipolar. We have gone through her manias, people taking advantage of her in her manic state, and her multiple manic episodes in the past year. I have learned a lot by reading and talking to people about the illness. My girl went ten years with out an episode but then her father died and started a roller coaster of episodes. When her baby daddy died it just got worse and it has been not only hard on her but her three boys as well.

This time is the depression and it is completely new to me, I have never had any experience with this and it’s pretty scary. I went to check on her and she is not her, lost weight, staring off and not really even answering any questions or acknowledged I was there. She went in to the hospital last night and her dr was supposed to come in and see her this morning to give her a shot of some kind to help her come out of it. I can’t imagine how hard it must be for her kids to have to see her going through this.

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Change


If I looked back a few years or more the person you would see would not be me. From physical, mental and emotional abused relationships always with narcissist men , to realizing I needed to change myself for my kids sake and then the journey back to being at peace( mostly) with my self, I have come a long way. I still think of the years I spent hiding inside my safety of home and letting life just slip by. I wasted years and years like that. I still would rather be in my house but I love myself now so it’s different. It’s not easy asking for help, getting into therapy and staying with it but I know with out a doubt it saved me. I still deal with narcissist people, and I try to remember they really are not doing it intentionally, or don’t even realize they are but it is not easy.