Author: queentracey1

I am a woman of many thoughts and ideas on anything creative,upcycling or frugal, love to take pictures especially of nature and my grandkids all while I fight the good fight of illness both mental and physical. I appreciate friendly criticism and love comments!!! So, don't be shy, talk to me...
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Flattery

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First off, I still haven’t figured out how to do the pingbacks thing but I still like to do the daily prompts by The Daily Post. 

You know, I am pulling a complete blank on this one. I see flattery as a way to get something you want from someone, you flatter them. Most times if they are the right kind of person this works well. 

I have a hard time with saying no and most who know me are fully aware of this and unfortunately most take advantage of it. 

 I try to not let money out but, then they use there money for other things and need like, diapers. I give. Some no if they just keep following me around even if I had said no I will eventually talk myself in to it. 

I just have nothing to write about the prompt for today. Lol. Wow. I think this is a first!!!!  

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Letting go

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My grandkids are 3 and 1 and they have really really bad parents. I have cut years off my life stressing and getting sick over trying to help. They need to let them go. They r homeless and have been more than not in these 3 years since jr was born. I tried to take them. I just can’t do it myself though. I am not mentally or physically strong enough to raise 2 Littles ones on my own. They don’t think anything is wrong. They don’t see how messed up these kids are going to b if something doesn’t change. I don’t know what to do. 

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Pain

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I went to my little brothers wedding today. It was beautiful, he was great, she was perfect, they are perfect for each other. The wedding went with no problems, the reception the same.

 The moment I walked in I was uncomfortable, as guest arrived and people were greeted, I felt invisible. The ran like a little girl to my uncle’s as they arrived looking for the safety I have always received under there wings and sat with them during the ceremony so it was much better then. I hadn’t been spoken to or had gotten more than a necessity response from anyone else but my brother since arriving. I stayed to take pictures and ended up having to be in one but , I dealt. My brother said that was what I got for staying. Love that kid. At the reception I was seated with my mother, ex step father who had his other two sons with him, current step father and niece. I brought my older son with me. I wanted to sit with my uncle’s and grandmother’s but wasn’t sure if that was allowed. Most of the time I sat unspoken to, just there. My niece moved next to me at one point so I wasn’t alone. The whole family got up and danced, except me. I spoke to my older brother, the best man, nieces father, best friend to my little brother, but, he ignored me as he has for 20 years. 

I have yearned for the love of family for so long. The ache I felt inside brought constant tears to my eyes. I have had friends as family, had lonely holidays and just a very lonely life. 

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Daily Prompt: Realize

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via Daily Prompt: Realize

Oh the ways I could go on, I have realized my life needs change, organization, newer people in my life, to learn how to say no, to be much healthier with out putting myself into a crisis, to get away from all the narcissist people I seem to be magnetically attracted to.

So. I have a lot of times that I realize I need change. I also realize a lot of these things are going to be hard to obtain. I know one day at a time. One thing a day, bla bla bla bla……..

Just saying it doesn’t make it happen and sometimes it seems very much out of reach.

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Tree

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Today’s one word prompt of the day from The Daily Post.

      TREE.        TREE       ΤℜÊÈ       ±Γ∈∈.  tree.    Tree  tree

So this is my interpretation of today’s word. Lol. I take tons of pictures of trees all the time, especially in the fall months. I think they are photographers best friend, these month are a constant picture waiting to be captured. Lol

Tree

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Stress and family

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Most families give each other some stress, I think it’s what makes them family. When u have that irresponsible kid w a family that is coming over w his bags packed and kids in tow for 2 years now. My head.  Here I am trying to finish my dress and finish the gift and I have a 1 and 2 year old running around, constintly up my butt which I love them dearly but, I just can’t deal w them right now. There is no room at the shelter so, I have no choice. How do I not loose my temper at mom or dad while still getting my stuff done. I am not sure I can.

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Test ….

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Today’s one word prompt of the day from The Daily Post.

This word says a lot to me. My whole life is a test and everything I do is a test. I have one week till my brothers wedding. I haven’t found the fabric I need to fix my dress. I haven’t got the paint I need to finish there gift. Now, my fiance and I broke up after the rsvp so, no plus one,  I have a feeling his moral support wasn’t going to b much anyway. He wasn’t good at that. 

Testing myself everyday, 

Being testing in everything in my life.