I usually have tremors that decide on what type of crafting day it will be and today was a great day! These were my days crafty creations, 
Category: my thoughts
Wooden pumpkins
When I made these I was thinking of a two holiday use. They are in sets of 3 with 4-6-8 roughly sized wood and weather resistant. One side could be for Halloween and the other side can be just pumpkins for fall or Thanksgiving decorations. I made some rustic and some not, some with pictures as some not! Lol So anyone want to share an opinion? I take criticism well!! 
Pains of change but still the same.
I am full of things to say today! Lol
As the seasons change, so does my pain. In the summer it hurts when it rains, in the winter it hurts as it gets colder, but the pain is still the same, pain. The winter pain spreads in more places, and seems to be lot more often, it’s harder to get past then summer pain. I can get up and move to get rid of summer pain but winter pain just gets a little easier to bare. It’s strange, it’s the same pain, just different.
Humans are entirely different creatures and creations then weather and seasons but they all effect us in many ways. Before getting into medicine my son used to say I was crazy when I said it was the weather making me hurt , now he just says I’m crazy! Lol
My own Monet!?
Saw a post by another blogger, Photos by Ravi and he had a version of Monet as well, so even though I posted this pic already I just wanted to repost with this in mind! What do you think? Do I make the newbie group for like Monet!
Course his are paintings but, so much beauty!
So, out of the blue?
Curious and curiouser
How many of you have found Snowballs in your freezer? Anyone remember when you found it, time of year?
I found a few over the years, all boys, and never one that last eat till summer or even spring. My older boy managed to hide one behind the ice trays once and since we weren’t using them during winter it lasted a while. Once it was found it was more like a lump of ice attached to the corner of the freezer. It went in the sink. Lol
Anyone else?
(Can’t explain why this popped in my head, I don’t post most of the things that pop in my head, you would thank me! )
The Evil lives
My husband exwife has been a nightmare since day one, it’s the ” he went and found his soul mate and got happy” thing. The closet drunk went and drank her liver to death, we thought she was going to die. Then the family stopped talking to us, stressing about adding two more kids to the house full time, allll the things that come with that very horrific thought, they have a cat, one of them hates us both, etc, etc,
To update, she lives. She came home from the hospital and if she can stay sober for two years then they will give her a transplant. WOW!
She has caused serious mental and emotional issues to those two boys, so part of me just thinks die already!
Then you have the boys, never taught respect, to clean up after themselves, empathy is non existent, they have been spoiled beyond imagination and still treated as much as babies as possible. The older one treated differently because he is “special” so the younger one is the one blamed for everything, and knows it.
I have such a hard time with the younger one. The older one does not visit at all. I know he needs meds for his ADHD but he takes 3 pills a day and seems to me to only get his hyperactivity under control. I get frustrated, impatient, aggravated, and plain stressed with him as it is when he is here for 3 days so living with us scares me to death! The things he does not know are the things I demanded my kids knew. How in the word do I switch my believes and parenting ?
Full sun garden
Dug out an old dead crap apple tree at the beginning of spring, then have been slowly working on making it look better. The ivy in front I transplanted from my peas and it has taken over! Lol for this year it is ok but next year I will have to control it. I am very excited for this project, I have only ever had a lawn about this size so having this be just one small area out of an acre to play with is more than I ever dreamed! Even my kitty loves it!!
Salina
On Clear out the shelter days here in Maine hubby decided I needed a new kitten. I got a dog, Atlas, he turned into a daddy’s boy, it’s been a year since I lost my beautiful Myah so he said it’s time. After a couple places we were about to leave when he started to play with this little girl. Now you need a kitty young before age of 1 to ensure the dog and cat can become friends, I insist on a female, and I wanted a white and or grey one. The shelter brought her out, 4 years old and black. I pointed out the age and the worker and my husband had a quick talk about her being fine with dogs and next thing I know we are adopting her!! Ummmmm, now wait a minute! I thought I was getting a new friend, not my husband!! I have adapted and she is friendly and crazy funny. She does ok with the dog, sometimes rubbing against him and freaking him out, other times she swats at him and hisses. Woman. Lol I guess she can stay.
Since they were babies
I have written this poem in different ways since my boys were born to include the times and situations. I sent this with my son to have in his apt , he knows it’s just a , makes mom feel better thing! Lol I can’t believe how fast time has gone, my youngest is 16 and 6 feet tall and my first born is getting ready to go to Med school!
I feel old!!!
My son is becoming a man
At 21, he has a vehicle, apartment, and is working at a hospital making 26. an hour as a technician, plus another part time job. He has gone off to college and lived in the dorms but this is actually moving out! Totally different! I cried like a baby! Lol
I made him some, Open When , cards. I printed some envelopes and glued them together and then put my notes inside. I labeled them, Open When~ you finish unpacking, after your first day at work, when you had a hard day, etc, etc.
you are only limited by your imagination and things to say! If you go to Pinterest you can find some printable stuff to help out!
It’s a big mess
I haven’t been on in a bit but I find the need to vent or ramble, whichever you prefer. I have talked a lot about my husbands ex wife, closet drunk, extreme parental alienation, and of course a narcissist. For 12 years he tried to get her family to do something about her drinking but they didn’t want to deal with it, now she has lost all liver functions. She has been in the hospital for over a week, they are being extremely quiet and secretive about the whole thing and the only reason we even know for sure it’s her liver is from her calling to talk to the son who will come here, and his comments on her eyes and skin being yellow.
Her mother told my husband, this was immediate family only matter. Ummm, let’s see now?, married 12 years • father of her only two kids • I think he is immediate family!!!!
They have told the kids to prepare, but then have been saying stay positive and not telling them that YES she is going to die. I feel they need to be able to say goodbye. I can’t imagine the mental pain they will always feel if they can’t say goodbye.
I really am so angry they are not letting us know if we should be preparing! If we have to take in his kids full time then we need to make a lot of changes!
His older son hates us both because of his mother, they just going to throw him at us knowing it’s the last thing he would want?
Her mothering skills are totally opposite of mine and having to adjust to kids who have not been taught respect, empathy, to pick up after themselves, to do anything for themselves at all is really hard for me. Both are ADHD but I think the older is actually autistic but she refuses to see it or have them re-evaluated although it has been since they first started school since it’s been done. Now they are 8th grade and high school.
So this is one of the many what I am doing , rants to come. 
Alienating
I live my life
My days all start with the same old game, open your eyes jump and up quick or feel like your dragging yourself all day,
Getting out of bed and moving around , is like telling the future of what my day will behold,
Someday I wobble and don’t feel secure not really sure if I will land on the floor
I take my pills, a handful to start, try to be a mother, try to be a wife
Half an hour at a time, I live my life
Not sitting too long or reading at all, it knocks me out and I hit a wall.
The day will end , no matter what time, if I drive or ride, read or write , mostly if I use my computer at all,
30 min later the alarm will ring, half an hour at a time, what a life
Falling asleep driving limits this for me , the thought of hurting anyone I can’t go far from home
What work could I do, physically week and plenty of pain for me
Can’t sit at a desk or stand for long , can’t drive , can’t type, can’t even write this blog, my eyes are falling
This day is over, the monotony of my life
Living 30 min at a time ,
my prison inside my own home
20 DIY!
Everything’s a Quote!
I just want to express my frustration, seems everything I do is a quote .
I use my app and it is outdated, deleted and reinstalled, nope still the same. If I go to the site on a browser then I have my updated categories and things , I have continued to battle this but I realize at the moment the site looks horrible so,
I’m sorry!!!!
Please bare with me.
🙏
Thank you.
Tracey
Tracey in Maine 