I need some pick me up on becoming…….
I am really trying to find myself but get stumped in depression or it’s to hard, or I try to give up. I am not happy with my life, were I am at 42, what am I doing? Is this it? I should be more than what I am and I want more. So, anyway, I am going to challenge myself to do one post everyday about, something I did to reach my goals that day, something positive I can say everyday. About me.
He’s a very quick summary to help you all to maybe get me better. If that’s possible!! Lol
At 22ish I was diagnosed Addisons Disease, hypothyroidism.
Married an abusive man because I was to scared to say no. We had a son. Left him and the first time I was with another man, boom pregnant. On birth control both times!!! Lol both times I was just getting back on my feet. Started with more health issues, one thing after another. I have heard, arthritis, fibromyalgia, scoliosis, carpel tunnel, mixed connective tissue disease, etc.etc.etc. I have tried to work but something keeps happening were I get sick then get fired. S S says because I can work some I do not qualify but I can not work enough to support my kids by myself??? Have something wrong with just the left side of my body were my hip area swells as in, size 12 when I get up, size 16 if I am active. I have gained more weight but can not excercise without swelling and hurting more. I was abandoned by my family for poor choices in my youth and still receive no support from them. I am lucky to get a card from my mother for Xmas. They all live in the same town. My 18 son did start to go the wrong path but has realized it and has gone back to school for his diploma, has a talent for singing and leaves for job Corp in 2 weeks, so I can’t be that bad of a mother. Never had money from his father and he has never been around. My 13 son is sweet and smart and a great kid, his dad is around some and does pay his child support.
So, I am a mental and physical mess and I want to at least make me happy. That was t as quick as I said, sorry.
Tracey in Maine 
Oh, I say grandkids…. my ex has other children and I found my son’s brother about 6 years ago so they could meet and he now calls me mom. His father was never there for him and his mother has just Idk, stopped being in his life. I can really pick them huh? But that is were my babies come in.
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Remember that our kids are our blessings in life. If we can see good in them, we can’t have been too bad as parents. No one is perfect, but if we all are doing our best, nobody can demand anything more.
Irene
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Thank you for your kind words Irene. I feel I may have already found a kindred spirit in you and that is encouraging!!!
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You are so welcome Tracey. I have been in places, where you seem to be now, why I also understand something…
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