Why is the sun rising?
Why are the birds singing?
Why has the world kept living
My heart is shattered, my mind is muck , my body is numb , I can’t get unstuck.
The moment he left me my world split and shattered.
I have never experienced such pain, such anguish as I did on that day, that day you went away.
My best friend, my soul mate, the reason my world spun, my husband, my hero, David Bernier. My love, my life, is gone
I lost 5 inches in my waist, I realized the secret , for me , anyway! Protein!!!!!
I needed to eat more protein, especially in the mornings. I am getting more exercise but it’s mostly because I feel better so want to do more. After a certain age it’s harder to loose and the things we did as teens or younger adults just don’t work anymore.
I already eat pretty healthy. I don’t drink soda or surgery drinks, I hardly drink coffee anymore. I have one problem and it’s dairy. I’m not lactose intolerant, I am dairy intolerant! Who knew it was different!! I’m also not much of a meat eater. Protein, lots of dairy and meat!
Ok so I got a free app , tons of free health apps out there!, I don’t count calories but I watch my water amount, watch my steps and the app I use has daily exercise plans on it. I use Better Me. I started to see roughly how many calories I was burning up in a day and ate high protein but low calories foods. There are great recipes on the app too. I stretch out everyday, do the daily routines ( when I remember) and just over all feel good!!!
It always makes me feel good to help people. This family has had a really rough time.
5 kids, a trailer big enough for them all but they are running out of time to move it. This is a real story of an honest family, I have been taken before so I do check on things now and make sure they are true. Does that make me a bad person??
I took my son to an appointment and decided while he was in to take the dog for a walk. My ears are frozen but I am sweating. I walked 30 min! 3,000 steps. Now considering I am supposed to be pacing myself, I think it is a good start. I bring him once a week but it won’t be 28 degrees and no wind on every Tuesday especially since this is the middle of winter in Maine! But , I still feel pretty good about it!!
Just need to try to stretch next time!!!
I was a size 6-8 my whole life until about 15 years ago. I was diagnosed with Addison’s disease when I was 22, this was 8 years later. I am ashamed to say I weigh 202. Pounds and I feel disgusting. I have physical limitations that I do not fully understand the reason for, I have fibromyalgia, ok, I have arthritis, ok, but I have a swelling in my hip and “tire” area no doctor has been able to explain! That was when I started limiting my activity and started to gain weight. I just figured out I can not have dairy and thought that would be it, but, nope. It is not my bones, we know that for sure. I think it has something to do with air, I can get a lot of gas sometimes after the swelling comes but it is so severe I look crooked! It is visible to anyone that one side is bigger, it has always been the left side. If I am physically active when it is already swollen, it gets worse and can hurt all the way down my leg. Everyone just says,” there is nothing there”? Yup, just my hip. But it swells. My dr said to “get regular ” but I have never been!!
So, I need to loose weight. I hate the way I look. But I just can’t fig out how with limited mobility. My dr has suggested water physical therapy. I just feel like it is hopeless. Of course my husband loves me and always gets upset when I say I am fat or something, says he still sees the 15 year old girl he met but, he will see it someday.
My suboxen weening process has been going great still. I need to get to another endocrinologist since my other one closed the office last minute, like literally. They called Monday to remind me of my appointment on Thursday, then called Wednesday to say the office closed for good??? Ok. Soooo, my primary is not sure how to deal with anything other than the normal monitoring of my levels.
I am still only taking 1 mg a day and still terrified to go down any more.
For 12 years, maybe 15 I have been doing suboxen because I became addicted to opioids. I have health issues and they told me all the time, (the dr’s )that my body could not handle detox that it would kill me. I died the day I did my first drug. I am tired of it, I don’t want to do this anymore.
I can’t keep dealing with the shame of being an addict. My husband has never even hit a joint! For real! He doesn’t understand at all but he is trying. I cut down to 2 mg months ago and for the past two day I have been doing one. It is not in my head, the lack of energy, the lack of motivation, I also have more pain than normal but I can think that away with the weather. I have to trick myself into not being affected by this. I need to know what it is like to feel normal, but with my Addison’s I won’t ever, so how normal can I get?
I need to sleep. I’m so tired. Igo through fazes of not sleeping and last night I woke up and could not go back to sleep and I need to sleep. I am supposed to get 10-12 hours with my illnesses. I have to break that now before it really starts or it will be so much harder .
My son, the pre Med one, he knows all about it and he just says, mom who cares, u r not an addict, I think you should just leave it alone. But, I still feel it. I want so bad to change. I need to not have soo many regrets and not wish I had done this and that. I will not be ever to just travel if I am still on this crap. I will accomplish one big thing in my life besides my kids, even if it is the only think I ever do.
Laws of attraction, God, Angels, the universe, which ever one you believe in, please help me. Please.
Trying to change my way of thinking. I have everything I need but keep finding reasons to not be able to finish my room, not able to do or make. I wanted to monetize my creative side and now that I have all I need I can’t get my butt in gear and do anything?? I think somewhere inside I am afraid to fail, think I am not good enough, I sabotage myself constantly. Maybe I just think to much.
I see and read all about changing your way of thinking ,changing your inner voice, subconscious, the values and beliefs you instilled as a child that now as an adult know are not right…
it is so mind exhausting to constantly be trying to figure out what has been holding me back from accomplishing anything in my life. I know I have the ability to do it. I know I have the skills and tools needed……
I was on a path to success, 21, already to be assistant manager at the convenience store I worked at, had my own apartment, was dating a pilot, moved in together and I started getting sick. I ended up working less and less and then quit all together, I started not eating, sleeping all the time, needing to sit all the time, hair was thinning out, skin turned yellow, after 6 months , I weighted 90 pounds, could not stay awake more than maybe an hour in a day and even when I was laying down felt like I needed to lay down. When Portland hospital finally diagnosed me I would have had maybe a couple weeks left to live. My life has never been even close to the same. The older I got the more illnesses you can add to the list and I had given up. I accepted my life was as it was. Then my husband fell into my lap! How many woman can say they found true love, never ever going anywhere or doing anything?
Now I have the husband, the house and all I could ever ask for. So what is my problem?!!!!