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Absence Epilepsy


My grandson is 8 and I don’t see him much at all, guilty feeling all around, he started having episodes of zoning out and then not remembering when he came back, so after testing, this is the diagnosis. To start on medication he will have to go through two weeks of being very sick. They live about an hour and half away, which to some people is nothing, my husband drives it to and from work most days, but for me it’s hell. I fall asleep so can’t drive it and my husband works some 70 odd hours a week.

We still have to finish the garage, the house is supposed to be done as soon as we can get a crew over here to do the electrical. The whole second floor of the house has to be packed up and a large amount of the first. Im trying to get myself figured out, I’m lost in a wave of what to do, how to do, make, buy, sell, cleaning schedule, etc, etc, etc.

Then my ADHD step son who can’t remember to do anything and needs constant supervision, he’s 13. My other son is trying to get through high school and screwed off the first two years. Both my husband and I have ADD to different extents so really my house is so unorganized it’s not funny. It’s complete chaos, not one room is finished. Not one.

Can anyone say full of anxiety and stressed out? I feel like I’m being pulled a bunch of different directions and I going to tear apart any time!!!

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Seasonal depression?


It can effect even the happiest of people, like me. I always looked at my depression as selfishness, when I was unhappy. Years of being a single mother, no help at all in any way from dad, financially stressed, fighting constant illness, and trying to do my best for my boys mentally and emotionally to help them become great men.

To be depressed when I have never been so happy has thrown me off. How do you explain something like that to people who have never experienced it?

Thanksgiving my son told me he had to work on Christmas and didn’t think he could come home, I thought I would curl up and ball! I have never had one of my boys on Christmas morning and although I know it is inevitable, I am not ready. He got a later shift then expected so did come home ,till he had to work anyway.

I hope you all have had a Blessed and loving time this holiday season.

Jacob, (my doctor in training), Branden, (turns 18 on the 31), step son Cj, (has made me a grammie )and Ryder, (13 year old just moved in with us from abusive mother, aka, David’s ex wife)

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Okay Techs, This One’s For You!


A dear friend of mine sent me this and I thought perhaps some of you out there would also enjoy it! So, here it is, and I would love to hear your …

Okay Techs, This One’s For You!
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I just can’t loose weight


I was a size 6-8 my whole life until about 15 years ago. I was diagnosed with Addison’s disease when I was 22, this was 8 years later. I am ashamed to say I weigh 202. Pounds and I feel disgusting. I have physical limitations that I do not fully understand the reason for, I have fibromyalgia, ok, I have arthritis, ok, but I have a swelling in my hip and “tire” area no doctor has been able to explain! That was when I started limiting my activity and started to gain weight. I just figured out I can not have dairy and thought that would be it, but, nope. It is not my bones, we know that for sure. I think it has something to do with air, I can get a lot of gas sometimes after the swelling comes but it is so severe I look crooked! It is visible to anyone that one side is bigger, it has always been the left side. If I am physically active when it is already swollen, it gets worse and can hurt all the way down my leg. Everyone just says,” there is nothing there”? Yup, just my hip. But it swells. My dr said to “get regular ” but I have never been!!

So, I need to loose weight. I hate the way I look. But I just can’t fig out how with limited mobility. My dr has suggested water physical therapy. I just feel like it is hopeless. Of course my husband loves me and always gets upset when I say I am fat or something, says he still sees the 15 year old girl he met but, he will see it someday.

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I am DONE being an addict


For 12 years, maybe 15 I have been doing suboxen because I became addicted to opioids. I have health issues and they told me all the time, (the dr’s )that my body could not handle detox that it would kill me. I died the day I did my first drug. I am tired of it, I don’t want to do this anymore.

I can’t keep dealing with the shame of being an addict. My husband has never even hit a joint! For real! He doesn’t understand at all but he is trying. I cut down to 2 mg months ago and for the past two day I have been doing one. It is not in my head, the lack of energy, the lack of motivation, I also have more pain than normal but I can think that away with the weather. I have to trick myself into not being affected by this. I need to know what it is like to feel normal, but with my Addison’s I won’t ever, so how normal can I get?

I need to sleep. I’m so tired. Igo through fazes of not sleeping and last night I woke up and could not go back to sleep and I need to sleep. I am supposed to get 10-12 hours with my illnesses. I have to break that now before it really starts or it will be so much harder .

My son, the pre Med one, he knows all about it and he just says, mom who cares, u r not an addict, I think you should just leave it alone. But, I still feel it. I want so bad to change. I need to not have soo many regrets and not wish I had done this and that. I will not be ever to just travel if I am still on this crap. I will accomplish one big thing in my life besides my kids, even if it is the only think I ever do.

Laws of attraction, God, Angels, the universe, which ever one you believe in, please help me. Please.

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Stop Apologizing To Toxic Boyfriends


Stop Apologizing To Toxic Boyfriends

Stop Apologizing To Toxic Boyfriends
— Read on thoughtcatalog.com/holly-riordan/2019/01/stop-apologizing-to-toxic-boyfriends/

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