Category: my thoughts
Stay Positive
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By Dr. Perry, PhD “Logic will get you from A to B, imagination will take you everywhere.” ~Albert Einstein In my professional life, I recommend to my patients that they practice a bit of time travel. I ask them to imagine traveling into the future and to make positive visualizations about the time to come. […]
Be the change
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This is regarding the man on the sex offenders registry that has been terrorizing our kids here in Maine taking pictures of them and then posting them on his social sites with crude and disgusting remarks. This man thinks sex with children should be legal!!!! We need help tightening the leash on these guys and not allowing things like this to happen. The police say they can do nothing because of his rights to photograph anyone in public.
Happiness
And it starts…..
I haven’t had the best life and most of it was brought on myself, bad decisions, poor judgement and all that goes with it. I had 2017 like a dream from someone else’s life, everything was beautiful, every day I felt like a different person but feared it would not be so in 2018. I don’t want to be right. I know nothing will take my husband and family but if I become a financial burden, if my dr appt, meds and needs become overwhelming, it scares me.
In sept before we even got married I called and talked to someone from Dhs about my Maine care, my medical insurance, I have always had it and people were saying I would loose it once I got married. The woman whole heartedly reassured me that it was not true and even if it came to a change in it that it is a slow process and they give you lots of time and help to figure it all out.
Well guess what, time for my review came and I was told to do this and that instead, then my pharmacist called and said my insurance wasn’t working. I call, again and said I was just in last week with the information that I was told to get, oh no, I don’t know why you were told that, you need to do the review first even if you are changing all the information. So while I am jumping through hoops to get another bunch of papers done, I am out of meds and worried about my life. I need my medicine to live. Literally. I have Addison’s disease and need my meds to survive. I know David would never risk anything coming close to my running out of that medicine but I have others and I am out of two now. I can live but won’t be happy. I really have never had to deal with anything like this. Filing out the papers , they don’t care about loan payments or credit card debt, they want to know gross pay and necessary living bills. The house and vehicle , assets , his work stuff, all the stuff they take out for, not included, they look at our income so differently than how we actually live. I was living in a rent paid apartment, getting food and lights paid for as well. I left that stuff behind and just want the medical but now I see why so many people stay living on the states dime to keep it. I’m totally stressed and overly anxious about it all.
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2018
The year 2017 was the best ever for me and I can not even begin to see how I can top it!
I found my soul mate and married him so he couldn’t get away! Lol We bought a house, moved my whole family a half hour away to a different town and into the country.
I was told I had cancer, and I beat it! I have worked on my eating and exercise habits, or trying to be habits and just over all well being, mentally, emotionally and spiritually.
I got to see my brother, sister and father for the first time in 18 years, met my nieces and my brother in law.
I have had emotional flows of happiness so strong it brings me to tears, all I have ever wanted and wished for I found with one man, who I ignored 25 years ago when we first met, but I wasn’t ready to receive his love at that time. We both had to indulge in the cruelty of human nature, sacrifice all that we were and then rebuild better and stronger first because only then, only when you can love yourself , be proud of who you are, are you able to fully accept someone’s gift of unconditional beauty and magical happiness that is true love.
I never thought I would find such a beautiful thing in this world so filled with hate and violence, I always thought my sins as a teenager had deemed me unworthy and went to far at trying to make up for it by letting people take advantage of my help many times till I realized that also was not right. I needed to just be me, deal with the punches as they came and live my life as it was. 42 years for me to be broken completely, stumble blindly for awhile trying to find the right path and start over to form the mother, friend, and woma, and now wife I wanted to be.
To me marriage is sacred and never ending. Divorce is not in my vocabulary with exception of cheating and violence, marriage is something you put 100% of yourself into and then find more. You are no longer one person but an ever evolving unit always in perfect stride with each other.
In writing my vows I somehow got to bible verses and found the story of god making woman. In the version I read it said he made Adam feel the need for a mate first and then he took, not from Adams feet for him to walk on her, not from Adams head for her to rule over him but from his side for him to understand they were equals. This even now I’m crying because it hits home so hard for us, I was always walked on and treated like I was nothing and David’s exwife ruled over him in his prior marriage and was controlling, so as you see, it just had to be.
so now as I say goodbye to 2017 I can not imagine what is in store for me in 2018 but having the love of my life by my side will make it nothing we can’t handle together.
Shared wisdom
“…. When life is ready for us to move and we resist, life will move us by any means necessary. What may feel like a disaster is actually a graduation. Remain open to being guided, supported and protected by the universe.” ~ Iyanla Vanzant Text & image credit: Iyanla Vanzant https://web.facebook.com/DrIyanlaVanzant/
Again, for the first time….
the people who have been reading me since the beginning of 2017 have probably got tired of the phrase,“For the first time!” I have had so many I can’t count them all and I thought that had to be it but I never should have doubted my husband. So , once again, for the first time in so long I can’t remember, I was so wrapped up in my family and what they were doing around me that I didn’t take one picture!!! Now I have always over done it with the pictures, like, taking fifty pictures of my grandkids playing in the snow. Always have had pictures of the boys opening stuff and reactions but not this year. I can’t even believe it!! And , yes, another!!! My husband made all of xmas dinner himself. Never before have I not done it myself, I am not talking about just doing the potatoes or opening all the cans kind of thing, but from the ham to the pumpkin pie, he did it all and I didn’t get any pictures!!!!! It was great, everything came out just right. Once again he has out done himself.
Tracey in Maine 