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Absence Epilepsy

Posted on by queentracey1

My grandson is 8 and I don’t see him much at all, guilty feeling all around, he started having episodes of zoning out and then not remembering when he came back, so after testing, this is the diagnosis. To start on medication he will have to go through two weeks of being very sick. They live about an hour and half away, which to some people is nothing, my husband drives it to and from work most days, but for me it’s hell. I fall asleep so can’t drive it and my husband works some 70 odd hours a week.

We still have to finish the garage, the house is supposed to be done as soon as we can get a crew over here to do the electrical. The whole second floor of the house has to be packed up and a large amount of the first. Im trying to get myself figured out, I’m lost in a wave of what to do, how to do, make, buy, sell, cleaning schedule, etc, etc, etc.

Then my ADHD step son who can’t remember to do anything and needs constant supervision, he’s 13. My other son is trying to get through high school and screwed off the first two years. Both my husband and I have ADD to different extents so really my house is so unorganized it’s not funny. It’s complete chaos, not one room is finished. Not one.

Can anyone say full of anxiety and stressed out? I feel like I’m being pulled a bunch of different directions and I going to tear apart any time!!!

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Seasonal depression?

Posted on by queentracey1

It can effect even the happiest of people, like me. I always looked at my depression as selfishness, when I was unhappy. Years of being a single mother, no help at all in any way from dad, financially stressed, fighting constant illness, and trying to do my best for my boys mentally and emotionally to help them become great men.

To be depressed when I have never been so happy has thrown me off. How do you explain something like that to people who have never experienced it?

Thanksgiving my son told me he had to work on Christmas and didn’t think he could come home, I thought I would curl up and ball! I have never had one of my boys on Christmas morning and although I know it is inevitable, I am not ready. He got a later shift then expected so did come home ,till he had to work anyway.

I hope you all have had a Blessed and loving time this holiday season.

Jacob, (my doctor in training), Branden, (turns 18 on the 31), step son Cj, (has made me a grammie )and Ryder, (13 year old just moved in with us from abusive mother, aka, David’s ex wife)