Seasonal depression?

It can effect even the happiest of people, like me. I always looked at my depression as selfishness, when I was unhappy. Years of being a single mother, no help at all in any way from dad, financially stressed, fighting constant illness, and trying to do my best for my boys mentally and emotionally to help them become great men.

To be depressed when I have never been so happy has thrown me off. How do you explain something like that to people who have never experienced it?

Thanksgiving my son told me he had to work on Christmas and didn’t think he could come home, I thought I would curl up and ball! I have never had one of my boys on Christmas morning and although I know it is inevitable, I am not ready. He got a later shift then expected so did come home ,till he had to work anyway.

I hope you all have had a Blessed and loving time this holiday season.