Posted in House Remodeling, My Photos of Maine

Some house pics

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This is our now , Sun porch. We changed out the regular door with a set we bought used and put 2 of them here. If necessary the second door will open but only if it has to be. The third ” door” we turned into a window on the opposite wall that originally had nothing. That does not move. Lol then we took out all the ceiling boards and found just lots of just waste so took it all out and insulated ceiling. It adds about a foot of extra space on one side but makes a huge difference. Now I need to get something to cover them up when it gets really hot but it helped with oil this past winter!!!

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So tired of this body

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I am always in pain, I am always having to deal! If I don’t jump out of bed in the morning, I’m screwed. If I sit on the couch to long writing or reading on WordPress, I’m screwed, the whole day will be a struggle and no matter what pills I take or what I try, I can not get back the energy and motivation that I should have had that morning. I need a new body.

I have the best love relationship with my husband, literally a fairytale. I have an awesome house that I am remodeling just the way I want. My boys are doing great. I do not worry about food or rent like I used to. I have a really good life. I want to enjoy it!!

Modern medicine has failed me but what else to do. I think I have realized I meditate with out even realizing I was, as I was reading and learning about it I saw it was something I do all the time, I sit and just focus on clearing my mind, or on nothing. Ok so now what? Being happy is hard!!!

Posted in kids and crafts and more!!!, my thoughts, Parents, Psychology
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My heart shatters more every day I do not have contact with my grandchildren. Their mother uses them as pawns and anyone who she gets mad at for any reason she takes them from. She has told them that their father does not love them and he picked his beer over them. I can’t bear to imagine what she told them about me!!! She is a horrible person and I do not say that often about people but I have been trying to put together a case for grandparents rights. They lived with me for over a year, always would run to me open armed and we had a very strong bond. Now it has been almost a YEAR since I have seen them and I just can’t believe it! She knows how much they love me , she knows everything but just doesn’t care. She puts herself before them and always has. She lost her first child to the father and if I bring all this stuff to court and they ask me I would take them in a heart beat. Even with all my issues I know those babies need someone to stand up for them. This week my little pickle will be 4 years old. I missed her whole 3 year , almost of time I can never get back. I’m so scared to actually loose them . I know I have been holding back because I am scared I would loose but I need to believe they would be better with me in there lives than not.