Posted in my thoughts, Psychology, self-help

Mindset


Trying to change my way of thinking. I have everything I need but keep finding reasons to not be able to finish my room, not able to do or make. I wanted to monetize my creative side and now that I have all I need I can’t get my butt in gear and do anything?? I think somewhere inside I am afraid to fail, think I am not good enough, I sabotage myself constantly. Maybe I just think to much.

I see and read all about changing your way of thinking ,changing your inner voice, subconscious, the values and beliefs you instilled as a child that now as an adult know are not right…

it is so mind exhausting to constantly be trying to figure out what has been holding me back from accomplishing anything in my life. I know I have the ability to do it. I know I have the skills and tools needed……

I was on a path to success, 21, already to be assistant manager at the convenience store I worked at, had my own apartment, was dating a pilot, moved in together and I started getting sick. I ended up working less and less and then quit all together, I started not eating, sleeping all the time, needing to sit all the time, hair was thinning out, skin turned yellow, after 6 months , I weighted 90 pounds, could not stay awake more than maybe an hour in a day and even when I was laying down felt like I needed to lay down. When Portland hospital finally diagnosed me I would have had maybe a couple weeks left to live. My life has never been even close to the same. The older I got the more illnesses you can add to the list and I had given up. I accepted my life was as it was. Then my husband fell into my lap! How many woman can say they found true love, never ever going anywhere or doing anything?

Now I have the husband, the house and all I could ever ask for. So what is my problem?!!!!

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I am a woman of many thoughts and ideas on anything creative,upcycling or frugal, love to take pictures especially of nature and my grandkids all while I fight the good fight of illness both mental and physical. I appreciate friendly criticism and love comments!!! So, don't be shy, talk to me...

4 thoughts on “Mindset

  1. Tracey, you sound just like me and have you ever looked into adult ADHD in women?
    Here are some links for you: https://www.additudemag.com/self-test-adhd-symptoms-women-girls/

    https://www.additudemag.com/adhd-symptoms-in-women/

    I’m here if you would like to message me. Find me on FB messanger: http://www.facebook.com/cheLLe1963

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    1. I am already taking some for ADD, I wish I had the H! My life revolves around fatigue. I still learned more from those links you posted thou so thank you! I love to learn and research! Glad to follow you back!

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