My flag of lights!! Very simple to do!
When my son first left for school I was lost, some of you helped by explaining your experience and I appreciated that. I wanted to show you my latest photo of my first born, looks so grown up! He is working in cardiology and decided he will stay with that in Med school. His girlfriend is a fashion designing major. I still miss him and cry when he leaves. I guess that will never change!!
I just read an article on addiction that made it obvious to me that the person who wrote it never has been an addict and probably never knew an addict.
There are many levels of addiction as well as many things a person can be addicted to , I have read that man needs to be addicted to something, work, family, or drugs and alcohol, anything can be an addiction. I am going to address the most known forms of addiction, drugs.
You have addicts to, heroine, cocaine, crack, pills, uppers and downers, most pain reliever pills can be addictive. Some people start from dr prescriptions, other get turned on from friends or just being bored. They say most addicts are people trying to forget or trying not to feel, maybe trying to compensate for something in their life, or something not in their lives, either way I think that is more of a mental addiction.
I personally became addicted to pain reliever pills that I was prescribed for years, moving, getting involved into a not so healthy crowd, and having to change dr, I started buying on the street. Once I decided it was enough, I went back to the dr and was put on suboxen, a drug they prescribe to help people get over addiction, like methadone, it has a blocker for opioids in it so if they are taken you can’t get high, ( although I’m sure people tried everything) the most you can do is nod off.
The drugs they made to help people get off street drugs are so much worse, you trade one for another and those make you sicker if you go with out. It is worse, it is so much harder to get off suboxen then any of the actual drugs! From reading and hearing it from people I know, you can get off pills and feel almost normal again in a week or so depending on the person, with suboxen it can be months if not years before you feel normal, again, depending on the person and the amount and length they were on it. Here in Maine you go to a clinic and they don’t wean you off they jack up your doses and don’t push people to get clean, which is what a clinic is supposed to do. That’s a whole different article though!
I am physically addicted, yes there is a difference, I have had a couple doctors tell me my body could not handle detoxing, which I know is true, but that’s cold turkey. If I didn’t get the nurses to get the papers in to the insurance company so they could get them to the pharmacy before the weekend I have had to go without, I ended up in the hospital. That was when I had a dr who only gave me enough for one day after my appointment. The dr I have now believes in me and gives me enough for, just in case. I have been taking suboxen for about ten years give or take. I have tried to wean off but failed multiple times. My endocrinologist just told me I have to do the weaning in more triple times between dose changes, so months not weeks. The last step is the hardest and I have been putting it off. All of my disabilities revolve around pain and fatigue, weaning causes pain and fatigue.
So it is not so black and white as some may think and it is not always junkies trying to get the next fix. I never sold things or robbed anyone, I never did or said anything in front of my kids and they never ever went with out anything. There are people who do and some even loose their kids, but not all. There happens to be quite a few people like me out there, we are just the ones you don’t hear about.
Some of you know my best friend is bipolar, she had years with out becoming manic and then it was one thing after another and it has been a roller coaster ride since.
She has 4 kids, all different dads. When the dad of the 3 boy died of an overdose when we did not even know he was using, she went manic. It was a slow process and took looking closely to see she was falling but I saw it. She trusted the wrong people, lost so much and blamed herself, went back to the hospital. She was in and out for months, could not get stable, then met this punk kid who manipulated her into thinking he was something he wasn’t. She got pregnant again. Baby 4 was a girl, he became abusive. I Didn’t Know!!! He stole the babies gift cards , sold things, was a junkie. I tried to kill him when I found out all this after the fact, it was wrong but, I lost it on him and would have if the hammer wasn’t taken out of my hand. I’m ashamed but will admit I did it. Ok, wait, back up. She hit the line, the fine line between love and hate, dealing with abuse and not. For the first time in the 20 years I have known her she became violent, throwing things, loosing her temper and mind. The police came, he told them to leave the kids with him, they said no way and took them. He knew he was supposed to call me , he knew I had paperwork and all the things to take the kids for the time she was in the hospital, but he was mad. They would not let him keep them, not even his one month old daughter, so he let them take them. Now it has been almost a year! The state of Maine refuses to give her kids back for their own safety. I am over the moon pissed! Her lawyer would not let me help. Dhhs has her feeling like such a failure and bad mother she hasn’t argued at all. She did everything they asked, is doing extra counseling to make better choices, but still missed her daughter growing up.
If someone with out bipolar had a break down after being in an abusive relationship for a year and the police came, took the kids to the state and said they had to do things to get them back, they would do it and get them back, but not her. Junkies’s get their kids back but not a single mother with bipolar. I don’t think it’s right, I wanted to make some noise, but she would not let me. I’m not able to do anything to help. She is still afraid if she makes noise against the state that they will take her visiting rights away.! It’s wrong. It’s prejudice. I don’t understand how the state of Maine can just do it.
Am I being unreasonable? Am I just to close to the situation to see it, should the kids be taken away????
Instead of blood pressure, heart rate, and cholesterol levels, your tree’s yearly physical is all about checking for — and preventing — disease and …Giving Your Trees a Checkup
State trooper, deputy sheriff, Damariscotta police department and the Boothbay harbor P D took time to attend an 8 year olds birthday party. He does a lot of appreciative gifts for these men and woman so they decided to give back! They ran around playing capture the flag and football with these kids for a couple hours and it was amazing!!!
Finally got a picture of him! I didn’t even care how good of a picture it was , he has only stopped once before and only for a quick second! My goal is to see every bird in my little book.
Haven’t actually written a post for a bit with my head all over the place!
The therapist for my son and my step son thinks it would be too much on them, to do the house this year. Wait, what!!! Does it make me horrible to think they can handle going with out the internet and bedrooms for at most a month?? This currently is no different than summer, they don’t do anything different so why is the virus and stress with step sons crazy mom different now than what it would be normally? David agrees and I’m out voted I guess. Now the plan is to do the garage first so then the boys can stay in the rooms above the garage while the house is being done and still have their coping tool.
We are doing a 3 bay so there is one for our wood shop. We are using Cheyenne for the most part, just the third door will be a smaller size.
We had a friend lend us his box truck to put the house stuff in but now we are putting the stuff from the garage in it and will put the house stuff in the garage when time comes. David tried to say we could get both done this year if we had time but I know that won’t happen. It sucks that we can’t do any part of the house until we do the whole thing. The second floor is being taken off and rebuilt, the stairs are moving and we are putting an addition on. It all goes together.
I am a style and decorate person and currently there is not one room in my house done! None! It drives me crazy that I can’t decorate or put up pictures or anything.
It always makes me feel good to help people. This family has had a really rough time.
5 kids, a trailer big enough for them all but they are running out of time to move it. This is a real story of an honest family, I have been taken before so I do check on things now and make sure they are true. Does that make me a bad person??
Yup, this is April in Maine!!!!
I took my son to an appointment and decided while he was in to take the dog for a walk. My ears are frozen but I am sweating. I walked 30 min! 3,000 steps. Now considering I am supposed to be pacing myself, I think it is a good start. I bring him once a week but it won’t be 28 degrees and no wind on every Tuesday especially since this is the middle of winter in Maine! But , I still feel pretty good about it!!
Just need to try to stretch next time!!!