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Lost the kids for having bipolar ???


Some of you know my best friend is bipolar, she had years with out becoming manic and then it was one thing after another and it has been a roller coaster ride since.

She has 4 kids, all different dads. When the dad of the 3 boy died of an overdose when we did not even know he was using, she went manic. It was a slow process and took looking closely to see she was falling but I saw it. She trusted the wrong people, lost so much and blamed herself, went back to the hospital. She was in and out for months, could not get stable, then met this punk kid who manipulated her into thinking he was something he wasn’t. She got pregnant again. Baby 4 was a girl, he became abusive. I Didn’t Know!!! He stole the babies gift cards , sold things, was a junkie. I tried to kill him when I found out all this after the fact, it was wrong but, I lost it on him and would have if the hammer wasn’t taken out of my hand. I’m ashamed but will admit I did it. Ok, wait, back up. She hit the line, the fine line between love and hate, dealing with abuse and not. For the first time in the 20 years I have known her she became violent, throwing things, loosing her temper and mind. The police came, he told them to leave the kids with him, they said no way and took them. He knew he was supposed to call me , he knew I had paperwork and all the things to take the kids for the time she was in the hospital, but he was mad. They would not let him keep them, not even his one month old daughter, so he let them take them. Now it has been almost a year! The state of Maine refuses to give her kids back for their own safety. I am over the moon pissed! Her lawyer would not let me help. Dhhs has her feeling like such a failure and bad mother she hasn’t argued at all. She did everything they asked, is doing extra counseling to make better choices, but still missed her daughter growing up.

If someone with out bipolar had a break down after being in an abusive relationship for a year and the police came, took the kids to the state and said they had to do things to get them back, they would do it and get them back, but not her. Junkies’s get their kids back but not a single mother with bipolar. I don’t think it’s right, I wanted to make some noise, but she would not let me. I’m not able to do anything to help. She is still afraid if she makes noise against the state that they will take her visiting rights away.! It’s wrong. It’s prejudice. I don’t understand how the state of Maine can just do it.

Am I being unreasonable? Am I just to close to the situation to see it, should the kids be taken away????

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Police attend party


State trooper, deputy sheriff, Damariscotta police department and the Boothbay harbor P D took time to attend an 8 year olds birthday party. He does a lot of appreciative gifts for these men and woman so they decided to give back! They ran around playing capture the flag and football with these kids for a couple hours and it was amazing!!!

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My house will never be complete!


Haven’t actually written a post for a bit with my head all over the place!

The house,

The therapist for my son and my step son thinks it would be too much on them, to do the house this year. Wait, what!!! Does it make me horrible to think they can handle going with out the internet and bedrooms for at most a month?? This currently is no different than summer, they don’t do anything different so why is the virus and stress with step sons crazy mom different now than what it would be normally? David agrees and I’m out voted I guess. Now the plan is to do the garage first so then the boys can stay in the rooms above the garage while the house is being done and still have their coping tool.

We are doing a 3 bay so there is one for our wood shop. We are using Cheyenne for the most part, just the third door will be a smaller size.

We had a friend lend us his box truck to put the house stuff in but now we are putting the stuff from the garage in it and will put the house stuff in the garage when time comes. David tried to say we could get both done this year if we had time but I know that won’t happen. It sucks that we can’t do any part of the house until we do the whole thing. The second floor is being taken off and rebuilt, the stairs are moving and we are putting an addition on. It all goes together.

I am a style and decorate person and currently there is not one room in my house done! None! It drives me crazy that I can’t decorate or put up pictures or anything.

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People in need


www.gofundme.com/f/74pev-please-help-us-move-our-home

It always makes me feel good to help people. This family has had a really rough time.

5 kids, a trailer big enough for them all but they are running out of time to move it. This is a real story of an honest family, I have been taken before so I do check on things now and make sure they are true. Does that make me a bad person??

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Kitchen


Bottom cabinets are done! Finally.
Took me awhile to decide on paint color and technique
Love the difference in the just painted to final finished door!
Going to go with the shades of grey for the top cabinets.

Couldn’t decide on handles and pulls for the longest time but have chosen a leaf design, it doesn’t come in the oiled bronze but my husband knows a place that can change them for us.

Can’t wait to have it all finished, although I am very nervous about my blue being more, in your face then I wanted it to be. I am hoping with the house renovations opening up the kitchen more and adding the double glass doors, all the natural sunshine will dull that effect and it will turn out ok. Designing and decorating my own house is not very hard but nerve racking at the same time, you never know how your designs will actually turn out! It doesn’t have one style, it’s not just rustic farmhouse or country farmhouse, I guess you could say it is a country cottage rustic farmhouse? Lol I guess with all the renovations it’s not going to be a 1940 built house anymore but we are keeping the hardwood floors and nice wood wainscoting in the dining room. I guess that is the only room that will still be from the original house!, course they put 3 additions on themselves so really, what even was the original house!???

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I guess it’s a start???


I took my son to an appointment and decided while he was in to take the dog for a walk. My ears are frozen but I am sweating. I walked 30 min! 3,000 steps. Now considering I am supposed to be pacing myself, I think it is a good start. I bring him once a week but it won’t be 28 degrees and no wind on every Tuesday especially since this is the middle of winter in Maine! But , I still feel pretty good about it!!

Just need to try to stretch next time!!!

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Inventory? Sell?


Trying to make things to sell is not the easiest thing with my constant self doubt and need for perfection! I have decided to turn my front porch into a for sale area for the winter, I can put my lawn sale things out to mix in with the things I make and buy to resell. It’s not a huge space and it’s not heated but gets full sun all day and is recently completely insulated!

Could this be the start of a small local business? I don’t know but I guess I have to start somewhere!

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For rent ?


There’s a new scam, or new to me anyway, of renting out houses for sale by the not owners.

Scammers are watching houses for sale and then placing adds in newspapers and online to rent them out at affordable prices. The one I know of, two bedroom house, driveway and small back yard in Old Town Maine. Once you answer the add you are sent a bunch of pictures of the inside with the address so you can stop and look around , through the windows.

The story is, they moved for work or medical reasons, love the place and want to keep it in the family so decided to rent it out till someone in the family can take it over. They are out of state, can’t afford to hire a realtor and no one lives in the state or close by to show it all the time. Maybe someone was showing it but can’t for the next two weeks or something to that effect, especially if you told them how soon you need a place.

All new insulation and heat is included, trash pick up, snow and lawn care included, ready to move in today!

Two bedroom houses with full basement around here are usually 800-1000 a month varying on heat and hot water included, but this place is only 550, just the cost of running it and mortgage!

They tell you ,first months rent and deposit to move in but of course are willing to work with the right people, have a rental lease ready to download and print off for signatures , you keep a copy and send back pictures of it signed, you can send them the money by Money gram and they will overnight the keys to you for immediate move in!!!

The old saying, if it’s too good to be true then it probably is, comes to mind here.

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The road to building a business


Being disabled puts a major damper on my income, my husband works for the railroad so it’s not that we are broke it is just with the mortgage, loans we took for the house, two vehicles one which has a loan on it , child support, etc, etc, etc. I only get child support once in a while even though the state is supposed to be handling that for me. I want to do more, I want to not have to panic when an emergency comes up.

I love to be creative, I love to make things out of nothing, or junk, and some of it can be sellable. I hope! 😬

I can not sit at a computer, or a desk. I can not do physical labor. I am out of shape and not the healthiest with chronic pain to top it off so, I think this is my best bet. Work at my pace, do things I love. I have a craft room, total mess! I have a work station in the basement for cutting, sanding and everything else I can’t do outside in the winter. I have the means, I live on a great road for it. I just have to fig out how to do it.

I have big things like wooden signs, things I can do when I am couch bound, make jewelry and wreaths, so with or with out tremors, good day or not I have it to do.

My problem is, I don’t trust myself, I am a perfectionist and second guess everything I do!

I will need some help guys! I need some support and people I can ask if it is good enough or not!

Come with me on my journey. Please?

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My own Monet!?


Saw a post by another blogger, Photos by Ravi and he had a version of Monet as well, so even though I posted this pic already I just wanted to repost with this in mind! What do you think? Do I make the newbie group for like Monet!

Course his are paintings but, so much beauty!

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