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Some house pics


This is our now , Sun porch. We changed out the regular door with a set we bought used and put 2 of them here. If necessary the second door will open but only if it has to be. The third ” door” we turned into a window on the opposite wall that originally had nothing. That does not move. Lol then we took out all the ceiling boards and found just lots of just waste so took it all out and insulated ceiling. It adds about a foot of extra space on one side but makes a huge difference. Now I need to get something to cover them up when it gets really hot but it helped with oil this past winter!!!

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Gifted and talented!


www.youtube.com/channel/UCW5JYBGK_HXOEo9ZA2N-b5A

This is for my 11 year old step son, the one out of two that doesn’t totally hate me, he is gifted and talented in school, above average smarts of course, but, is made fun of and teased for things. Target for bullies, mom favors his brother, he has had it rough for awhile now, this is his you tube channel and even if you don’t ever watch videos, can you please subscribe??? Please? He started a gamer channel two years ago and even thou he knows it won’t go huge or get famous, he still hopes for more than what he has. His self esteem is very low right now and you don’t have to watch them, I have the notifications turned off for all my you tube stuff so when I want to look for stuff I don’t have a bunch of notifications I have to clear first. It would be your good deed for the day!! Lol it has been months since he has had a new subscriber so he is getting a little doubtful. Please help me bring up his faith again. Thank you

Blessed Be.

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Alcoholic


My step son from my first marriage is an alcoholic. He hit his bottom and spend 6 months in jail. Now he is here living with us as he begins his journey of sobriety, becomes a better man and father , to find his inner strength to fight the girl who devastated him from the inside out and then took his kids away from him. This is not just him riding on it all but his kids as well.

At the same time my husband and I struggle to support four people, two vehicles and a house on just his income and my raising medical co pays.

The dr has been trying to change my medications to lower the amounts and help me with my complete lack of vocabulary, inability to think and articulate and organize, and so on and so on. The motivation is the only good thing come out of it so far.

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Rejected!!


I saw a post of Facebook about a group of people called Tinkergardeners that do outside classes with kids up to 8 learning through play. I did all the reading and thought it sounded like a great fit for me. I love kids, learning and teaching, I can’t work full time but part time I can do. Classes are an hour long and one a day would be great. Bla, bla, bla. The requirements were good, I did all the first applications and then got to the live one way interview. You have a question, one min to think and then one minute to answer. I thought I did ok. But, I just got an email that while they appreciate my interest, they are unable to complete my application at this time! Hit like a rock! I was not expecting that at all!

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Devastated


My heart is on fire with grief, guilt is taking over, my responsibility to my loved ones who counted on me has been betrayed. I opened the door, I let my beautiful girl outside at night and then left her out side when I went to bed. I killed my best friend. My precious girl, she was an angel, she was the most well behaved animal I have even had the pleasure of meeting. She didn’t get up on things or rip things, she never ever not used her litter box. She was very simple and happy. She deserved so much better. She was only 7. I can not forgive God anymore, he has taken so much from me, I don’t need to be stronger! I don’t need to endure anymore great pain! I have had so much pain in my life. I mean, cmon, my Adrenal Glands were so over used by the time I hit my 20 that they quit at 22! Not deformed or any other reason, they were just exhausted! I understand a lot of the things that have happened in my life and I even understand the reason behind them and I did need to learn to be stronger and I was. But I have lived through it, I beat the pain, I saved myself and my kids from all the abuse and I made myself into the person I am now. I beat cancer. I have over come and have my rewards for my troubles. I have the most perfect man for me that could ever be, we have our quirky house, and we have our boys. Yes, his ex is still mentally and emotionally abusing his two and my grandkids are in a horrible situation but we are dealing, Day by day. How could anyone possibly thing I didn’t still need her! How could anyone think I could just get up and move on with out my shadow? She has been next to me every day since she could walk. She was my sunshine, my happiness and my baby.

Myah May Lee August 2011-August 2018

WhaT is all this about August? She was born and then God took my only 2 best friends ever in August?

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How much more!


From my own personal experience, someone who was “cheated on” by there husband does not go have an affair with a married man.

In my opinion someone who is a parent, a good parent, can not say someone else’s kid should go with out the essentials to live , if it means anything less for them!

Someone who lies a lot to their kids, who constantly puts down the other parent to the kids, who does everything possible to try to make everyone and anyone think that parent is a horrible person, and gets away with it for years, is not just a pitiful, disgusting, selfish , sorry excuse for a parent, but for a human being!

The faith I have in Maine state department of child support, child abuse, the court system, all of it, has wavered so much lately, to be told the mental and emotional abuse of kids is unimportant because they are 10 and 12, shocked me. They can take care of themselves.

The thought that things will not be seen fairly for each family, his kids deserve it yes, but why does that mean mine doesn’t?

Please someone tell me, that these two boys are not going to be screwed up for life? We can only help them so much only having them for two nights a month, we want so much more time, please let the fathers rights be seen as actually equal as the moms. Joint custody means so much more than what we get, we have to fight and argue for school information, for special event information,

i am so tired. When will the world stop being filled with so many hateful people?Why aren’t the kids the most important thing?

 

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Solved!


My mystery bird has been finally identified!

I thought I had a picture of this from the back but I can’t find it, so apparently they are young sterlings, which is what this is. The beaks will turn yellow and the feathers become different shades.