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Alcoholic


My step son from my first marriage is an alcoholic. He hit his bottom and spend 6 months in jail. Now he is here living with us as he begins his journey of sobriety, becomes a better man and father , to find his inner strength to fight the girl who devastated him from the inside out and then took his kids away from him. This is not just him riding on it all but his kids as well.

At the same time my husband and I struggle to support four people, two vehicles and a house on just his income and my raising medical co pays.

The dr has been trying to change my medications to lower the amounts and help me with my complete lack of vocabulary, inability to think and articulate and organize, and so on and so on. The motivation is the only good thing come out of it so far.

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Burnt out


It is one stupid idea after another, Im trying constantly to prove this and that are wrong, wondering how can they not see the damage they are putting on them?

Since David ant I got together his social path ex wife has done everything possible to turn those two boys against him. She started it the day they were born. The marriage was a sham, two years in he had his own room but she was a closet drunk so he stayed for them. Now he realizes how bad that was and her drinking has caught up to her. The drs said no more drinking at all. She is an alcoholic and coming home to her two kids. They want to help mom of course, so they are told to break any alcohol they see her with. Don’t let her drink. So now these two young boys are given the responsibility of keeping an alcoholic away from alcohol!

If anything goes wrong they will blame themselves! REALLY!!!!

In the same sentence nana says, they are all that matters, if she wants to drink let her it will be her fault not mine and they asked what they could do to help,

Then we have the grandkids stupid mother who has decided her new man is now the kids daddy, my grandson has been out of school for a week and when I try to ask I am told not to call back or she will put a pfa on me! My stepson is in jail so she is doing whatever she wants with those kids and along with her mother who helped her rob me a couple years ago trusting type and her bipolar self who knows what is going on. She has been a big balls of lies and more lies since day one, so many she will totally forget and not have a clue what I am talking about but when I sent her a screenshot of her saying it, I am the bad guy, I am the one whose is denied the kids for months.

Has the world always been filled with so many narcissistic parents?

Is that how the world got like this is it just keeps going generation after generation??

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Empaths


This hits home with me, I am an empath. Most my life I just thought I was a basket case, always emotional and misunderstood by everyone. I think I suppressed it for so long that now I can keep it buried sometimes if out in public. It has effected my life in so many ways, I hardly ever leave my house, it takes so much out of me and I already have a medical illness that does that on its own.

awarenessact.com/many-people-avoid-empaths-because-of-these-5-reasons/

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Policies on emergency care for animals


https://www.change.org/p/people-for-the-ethical-treatment-of-animals-peta-change-the-policies-for-emergency-care-for-animals?recruiter=687672794&utm_source=share_petition&utm_medium=copylink&utm_campaign=share_petition&utm_term=autopublish

My name is Kathy Stremcha

August 1st I rushed my dog to the emergency hospital in Middleton Wisconsin. Got him in there they took an x-ray, came back told me it was bloat. I told them well fix him basically. They told me their policy is money up front before they can proceed.  No no no….I want you to get him in there please he’s my baby!

We need 3000.00 before we can proceed. I told them I can get if but he’s sleeping he’s a truck driver and he’s not answering the phone. PLEASE GET HIM IN THERE. Nope…I had to choose let him suffer,or put him to sleep. That is ridiculous he was everything to me….my constant companion( Dr.orders) I have ptsd and agoraphobia.. he was Akc registered Great Dane (blue) champion bloodlines….and they took him from me.

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Does it???


Everything happens for a reason…..

Ok, I get some of it. My hard life may have strengthened me to fight my illness harder. 

But now, why can’t I get past it? 

Why can’t I just move on? 

I have been going through hell because the wedding is coming and I have to be with my family. I want to be ok there and just celebrate my brothers wedding.

I can’t get past that they wanted to take my son. Yes it was 17 years ago but I just found out details yesterday. I have 2 weeks to get myself together. Less than 2 weeks. Oct 8 .

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Day one


I didn’t accomplish much today, I am making something for my little brothers wedding that I hope I have the nerve to give them. They are huge gamers, both love them and are computer geeks. I get projects made but chicken out before giving them. I will get opinions as I go from you to help with that. I tried getting my windows 10 upgrade and it messed up my speech recognition that I was using to get all my horrors down on paper.so, no life helping or changing accomplishments today. I realized, I don’t know we’re to start….. Do I set goals, give myself time limits, I’m not sure…

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Part 2


It’s hard to figure out what to tell to help imagine who you are and how u got there, 

Could be from when I was a tween, the first time crying over a boy and ran to my mother, when she realized what it was about she harshly said oh you will get over it and walked away….did that say to me that my feelings were not important.? Yes I think so.

Our house burned two weeks before my son’s first birthday. I got the abusive man part but then spent eight years with one emotionally unavailable and mentally abusive. I was an extreme extrovert before and now, I go days or weeks without leaving my house. I am an extreme introvert. I shy from people. I do not like the way I look but can not do to much to change it. I attract narcissistic people and I let them use me for whatever. I need to change me.