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Peace
I love taking pictures, regardless of if I have an eye for it or not I just don’t know. The colors, the way the camera can pause a moment in time. Freeze it. I can look through my camera and focus on what’s important, see what needs to be seen and only that. I love my camera.
Lamp
This lamp arm swings around but has dropped, I have seen others that did the same but, anyway I have tried tightening it but it still drools back down. I don’t want it to stop swinging around, I use that a lot. Any one have any ideas on how to fix this without glueing. That would stop the swivel.
Clumsy
The Daily Post one word prompt for today.
Clumsy, I think of my love life, my relationships with others, my social life.
I have few healthy relationships that are as I said, healthy.
I feel like we stumble through life clumsily just trying to find our purpose, our meaning, our y.
I don’t know the point. You can drive yourself insane asking y
Everything happens for a reason, ok
It’s all about the paths we take, the choices we make. Ok
I don’t really know who I am.
I want something to believe in. But, how?
Flattery
First off, I still haven’t figured out how to do the pingbacks thing but I still like to do the daily prompts by The Daily Post.
You know, I am pulling a complete blank on this one. I see flattery as a way to get something you want from someone, you flatter them. Most times if they are the right kind of person this works well.
I have a hard time with saying no and most who know me are fully aware of this and unfortunately most take advantage of it.
I try to not let money out but, then they use there money for other things and need like, diapers. I give. Some no if they just keep following me around even if I had said no I will eventually talk myself in to it.
I just have nothing to write about the prompt for today. Lol. Wow. I think this is a first!!!!
Letting go
My grandkids are 3 and 1 and they have really really bad parents. I have cut years off my life stressing and getting sick over trying to help. They need to let them go. They r homeless and have been more than not in these 3 years since jr was born. I tried to take them. I just can’t do it myself though. I am not mentally or physically strong enough to raise 2 Littles ones on my own. They don’t think anything is wrong. They don’t see how messed up these kids are going to b if something doesn’t change. I don’t know what to do.
Pain
I went to my little brothers wedding today. It was beautiful, he was great, she was perfect, they are perfect for each other. The wedding went with no problems, the reception the same.
The moment I walked in I was uncomfortable, as guest arrived and people were greeted, I felt invisible. The ran like a little girl to my uncle’s as they arrived looking for the safety I have always received under there wings and sat with them during the ceremony so it was much better then. I hadn’t been spoken to or had gotten more than a necessity response from anyone else but my brother since arriving. I stayed to take pictures and ended up having to be in one but , I dealt. My brother said that was what I got for staying. Love that kid. At the reception I was seated with my mother, ex step father who had his other two sons with him, current step father and niece. I brought my older son with me. I wanted to sit with my uncle’s and grandmother’s but wasn’t sure if that was allowed. Most of the time I sat unspoken to, just there. My niece moved next to me at one point so I wasn’t alone. The whole family got up and danced, except me. I spoke to my older brother, the best man, nieces father, best friend to my little brother, but, he ignored me as he has for 20 years.
I have yearned for the love of family for so long. The ache I felt inside brought constant tears to my eyes. I have had friends as family, had lonely holidays and just a very lonely life.
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Wedding gift
Besides the messy newspapers and it’s not in the frame but I need honest opinions because I’m not sure about giving it???????
Test ….
Today’s one word prompt of the day from The Daily Post.
This word says a lot to me. My whole life is a test and everything I do is a test. I have one week till my brothers wedding. I haven’t found the fabric I need to fix my dress. I haven’t got the paint I need to finish there gift. Now, my fiance and I broke up after the rsvp so, no plus one, I have a feeling his moral support wasn’t going to b much anyway. He wasn’t good at that.
Testing myself everyday,
Being testing in everything in my life.
Peace
No breeze the water is still
the tide is out
With the rushing in of the water will come my strength
My spirit is high
my soul is at peace.
Does it???
Everything happens for a reason…..
Ok, I get some of it. My hard life may have strengthened me to fight my illness harder.
But now, why can’t I get past it?
Why can’t I just move on?
I have been going through hell because the wedding is coming and I have to be with my family. I want to be ok there and just celebrate my brothers wedding.
I can’t get past that they wanted to take my son. Yes it was 17 years ago but I just found out details yesterday. I have 2 weeks to get myself together. Less than 2 weeks. Oct 8 .
Pretend
Oh the fun I have with pretending to be happy. I pretend to know what I’m doing as I craft, as I function through my life. I think today I will pretend to know what I’m doing as I cut and sew, stencil and sponge. I could go on and on with this word. I pretend to be a photographer and artist……… Ok that’s enough. Lol. Let’s go pretend to have a great day!!
JUMP
So, it was brought to my attention that I was asking questions about pingbacks and the prompts from the daily post , but, I never did write anything on the one word prompt.
It shows an inner look at my thoughts, my brain, the scattered way I do things because this is actually my life. I jump from thing to thing, thought to thought, project to project. Every aspect of my life is this way. I have tried to write things down so I don’t jump around, ya that doesn’t work. I wish I could organize my thoughts, goals, things I need to do, things I need to remember, sometimes it works for a short period of time but not long. I need major organization in my house, that would help alot I’m sure but not so easy , I have tons of stuff I need to get rid of to make room, which, means a yard sale which, I have the place, finally, to do it but now I need to figure out how to display ( display is the key in all sales) things, tables, tarps, place for hanging things, then prices and signed and of course when do I want to do this. My brothers wedding is in two weeks and I’m stressing out over that as it is but I also need to take into consideration we have a cornmaze to go to this year that is a daylong thing, another weekend is a family thing from my bf family, I am going to run out of weekends in October. See what I mean, jump, jump, jump….
Tracey in Maine 