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The pills!


I already take my share of meds, I have the ones to keep me alive, I have my thyroid, my gerd, cymbolta, iron, vitamins, Wellbutrin, now tho I am trying to get off the suboxon after 10 years! I am tired of taking all this crap. I just got on adderall to see if we can fix the whole reason I got on the suboxen, it gave me energy or motivation. Everything I have focuses on fatigue as the main symptoms. I hate it. Now the dr is saying that I may have the motivation but I’m still not able to finish anything.

I need to be able to===

take care of house, husband, teen boy living at home. I have my 26 year old step son who just got out of jail for being an alcoholic car thief (yup, that’s right!) living here, he has two kids whose mother is neglectful and horrible to them so we will have them two also soon, I still have boxes packed from moving in over a year ago. My kitchen is only half built, I have not started my bedroom, just my husband clothes, I have a crafting room that we started but I had to move to make a room for my step son, so now I have stuff everywhere till I can reorganize my laundry room to use as a craft sewing room as well.

I read on how to do this and that but can not make heads or tails most of the time when I try to figure out how to start.

This blog, I have crafting, photography , psychology, my tails from my three boys and my husband and I, and none of it really makes much sense!!!!

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Alcoholic


My step son from my first marriage is an alcoholic. He hit his bottom and spend 6 months in jail. Now he is here living with us as he begins his journey of sobriety, becomes a better man and father , to find his inner strength to fight the girl who devastated him from the inside out and then took his kids away from him. This is not just him riding on it all but his kids as well.

At the same time my husband and I struggle to support four people, two vehicles and a house on just his income and my raising medical co pays.

The dr has been trying to change my medications to lower the amounts and help me with my complete lack of vocabulary, inability to think and articulate and organize, and so on and so on. The motivation is the only good thing come out of it so far.